You're not the only one who feels this way

I Just Wanna Pour My Feelings Out Here.

2010-03-20T01:42:00.003+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... say, life is like that, what to do? Bo pian.

I was tossing from left to right on my bed, just had some thoughts running through my mind. I just can’t seem to erase thoughts I have. When I work, I feel so free and normal, but when it comes to me being alone like bed time, the thoughts all just come barging in. I’m doing this post because I just wanted to share or should I say just wanting to have someone to talk to. Anyway I don’t have in mind who I wanna talk to when it comes to this kinda stuff. Therefore I shall just do it here.

Life has been interesting and fun now, like working, a fun bunch of colleagues, so yea. I’m doing fine right now, earning cash and spending it like nobody’s business. You’ve got to pamper yourself every once in a while yea. I bought quite a few stuff which I think is unnecessary. Vans Takahayashi, PS3, and Vans Red, shirts, t-shirts, Gap hoodie? what else? I forgot. I can’t be bothered on what I bought since it’s unnecessary. More to come I guess?

Mum’s in France, settling down. She’s coming back on the 5^th of May. Then going back to France again. I made some plans!!! After my NS, I’ll be heading over there for a few months. Wonderful! Prefer to go alone or with someone I love J Future Girlfriend I suppose? Why am I always talking bout girls? Fuck. I want someone that I can love, but I am afraid to. Hahaha. Dumbass. I love what I’m doing now, at the same time, I want someone that I can share it with. But I do not feel like committing my time to a relationship. Why is it like that? Please someone tell me? What an ass I am. Tsk tsk tsk.

I had 2 days off. Yesterday and today. Home delivery for the past 2 days. Yesterday was Mac delivery, today was Canadian. Had Canadian with my Dad only. All the ladies in the house were either out or not in Singapore. 2 lonely guys at home, Me and Dad.
So both of us ate pizza, had pepsi, calamari, and chicken wings. Like father like son, I’m starting to look like him. OMG! Hahaha. Big tummy, wear specs, walking around in the house with just boxers on. OMG OMG. Luckily we have some things which ain’t common. I’ve got short hair, while he’s is long, my skin is fair while he’s is dark, my eyes are just nice while he’s is big and I wear earrings while he doesn’t. How cool is that? Hahaha. Like father like son. Bo pian.
Oh yes, we watched the same show, ate the same stuff, talked bout the same stuff and what else? I don’t know. No wonder he’s my father. Bo pian. Hahaha. Like father like son. Bo pian. We smoke too. He has quit though, except me. Like father like son. Bo pian. Thank you Lord for a father like him. Hahaha. Bo pian. Life for me is like that. What to do? I’m happy so is my family. Bo pian.

7 more hours to sleep. Bo pian have to sleep. What to do? Like is like that. Work, eat, sleep, shopping. Done. This is what you do for you life. Thanks ah. What to do? Like is like that. Bo pian.

The day that we have a romantic dinner, is the day you will see me for the last time.

2010-02-04T00:12:00.003+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... Have a romantic dinner together for the very last time, and after, I will forget you forever. This is true.

Lately, I’ve had thoughts that really make my heart ache. Voices I hear everyday, they tell me, just let it go and carry on, why still hold on when you know there isn’t anymore chances? Please make the right choice, start afresh, don’t let it affect you anymore. Those are the sentences I have been hearing for the past few days after some incidents that happened. Actually those voices started long ago which was already close to a year. Sometimes, it is really very hard to let go of someone whom you gave your all and would do anything just to make her happy. But at some point of time, you do make her angry and making her happy was just as simple as snapping my fingers. Recalling those wonderful, sweet and loving times we had is really great but at the same time agonizing.

A few days ago, I was chatting with a friend on MSN, and all about a sudden he just asked bout my Ex girlfriend, and then on, we started talking about relationships and things that relate. I din really wanna talk bout it but somehow I did and it really hurt a lot that night.

Really good friends had told me to let her go, but it ain’t easy. Just because I still love her regardless of what had happened in the past. I don’t know why. That is why maybe people say that love is blind? I do think it’s true to a certain extent. Like you would do anything for that person you really love. Alright so letting go ain’t easy and that explains why I’ve been clinging on after the breakup on 31^st of March 2008. Some of you may think it’s stupid and child’s play to remember dates, but for this particular date it’s really heartbreaking. Try being in my shoes.

Ever since the breakup, I’ve been longing to get her back into my arms again, countless times I’ve tried and tried, the result I get is zero. It’s really hard now that I want her back into my life. I’ve been hoping so much, thinking almost every night what we did together when we were together. Just purely thoughts of her. Just whenever I’m alone in some where quiet and comfortable, I’ll think of her too. I’ve been longing to see her, but she says she’s busy every now and then. It’s alright I understand, there may be reasons.

So I’ve been thinking if I should really listen to the voices I hear every now and then? If I let my thoughts of her go, It would really affect me emotionally. But if I cling on and knowing there ain’t hope, it would also affect me. But if I do try to let her go, things may have a change of direction, may be better, may be worse. I would want to have a positive outlook.

Actually I’ve had made my decision while I was on the way home in the bus just now. I will try to forget her, but in one condition, let me have the last dinner with her and that’s all. It would end there. From there on.. let’s see bout that.

I may think sometimes, that my blog is too wordy? But if you really like reading stuff from me, I guess you wouldn’t mind right? J

Tried snapping photos of myself, but so very unsuccessful.

2010-01-31T23:35:00.002+08:00

If i were to see you, i would...snap a photo of myself cause i'm bored.

I was bored and there fore i just snapped a few pics and found this one the nicer looking one. Don't know why i just can't snap a nice photo of myself. Everything turns out so ugly. fucking hell.

Full of energy!

2010-01-28T23:29:00.001+08:00

If i were to see you, i would...Turn my back onto you.

I’m tired now after a laborious day at work and the extremely long bus ride home. I haven’t had dinner neither have I had lunch. All I had was 3 slices of walnut bread in the morning before proceeding to the office. Gosh. Diet ah..Diet.. Haha. Wrong way to do it, but this is not my plan on how I’m going to slim down. I mean just toning up my abs. Gonna get rid of the excess fats around my waste. I just realize I can’t wear anymore V-necks nor tight shirts!! Fuck! That is why I’m seriously trying to cut down on my intake on food and drink more water and eat healthily.

Alright, I woke up really early today just to go to the office to sign some important documents and headed to Gap. Woke up at like 8 and left the house at 8.30. Although I had like less than 8 hours of sleep last night, I felt so damn energetic and happy when I went for work today. Was like smiling to everybody, then after half the day had passed, I slowly felt tired. Actually, work today was a little relaxing. The reason why is because I was asked to go to Somerset Mrt to help my colleague pick up some stuff and I took my own sweet time walking there which made my colleague alittle impatient and she left before I could reach, and I got a call to go back because she had already walked back before I could reach. Hahaha. That was like 2pm. Then shortly after I went for my break.

Then, at like 5, I was asked to go to Wisma to collect stuff. Wooow damn happy. Hahahaha. Took my own sweet time to stroll there and stroll back. Took me like 45 mins just to go and come back. Hmm Relaxing huh? Hahaha 3 hours later I’m on the bus going home. :O Going to work again tomorrow and gonna smile to everybody I see! Goodnight everybody!

2010-01-27T23:05:00.002+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... Play this amazing song for you to hear, and only you.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=moWZEY1UdRE

Lyrics: PLEASE COME BACK TO ME

The rain falls on my windows
And a coldness runs through my soul
And the rain falls, oh the rain falls
I don't want to be alone

I wish that I could photoshop all our bad memories
Because the flashbacks, oh the flashbacks
Won't leave me alone

If you come back to me
I'll be all that you need
Baby, come back to me
Let me make up for what happened in the past

Baby come back to me (come back)
I'll be everything you need (come back)
Baby come back to me (come back)
Boy, you're one in a million (come back)
Baby come back to me (come back)
I'll be everything you need (come back)
Baby come back to me (come back)
You're one in a million (one in a million)

Lower east side of Manhattan
She goes shopping for new clothes
And she buys this
And she buys that
Just leave her alone

I wish that he would listen to her side of the story
It isn't that bad
It isn't that bad
And she's wiser for it now

I admit I cheated
Don't know why I did it
But I do regret it
Nothing I can do or say can change the past

Baby come back to me (come back)
I'll be everything you need (come back)
Baby come back to me (come back)
Boy, you're one in a million (come back)
Baby come back to me (come back)
I'll be everything you need (come back)
Baby come back to me (come back)
You're one in a million (one in a million)

Everything I ever did
Heaven knows I'm sorry babe
I was too dumb to see
You were always there for me
And my curiosity got the better of me
Baby take it easy on me

Anything from A to Z
Call me what you wanna but
I open my heart to be
You are my priority
Can't you see you punished me
More than enough already
Baby take it easy on me

Baby, take it easy on me

Baby come back to me
Baby come back to me

Baby come back to me (come back)
I'll be everything you need (come back)
Baby come back to me (come back)
Boy, you're one in a million (come back)
Baby come back to me (come back)
I'll be everything you need (come back)
Baby come back to me (come back)
You're one in a million (one in a million)

Baby come back to me (come back)
I'll be everything you need (come back)
Baby come back to me (come back)
Boy, you're one in a million (come back)
Baby come back to me (come back)
I'll be everything you need (come back)
Baby come back to me (come back)
You're one in a million (one in a million

End

Message for you, You're one in a million, please come back to me? Very meaningful lyrics.

I've got a lot of stuff in my head.

2010-01-26T22:56:00.002+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... let my thoughts race me.

For the past few days, while I was taking my off days from work, a lot of stuff happened. Be it good or bad, it has just affected me emotionally. The things that happen just keeps on rumbling in my mind. The past was being brought back again and that triggered my emotions. I can’t seem to see whether whatever being said to me was true, neither would I wanna pin all my hopes on that. I’m afraid of being left alone with all those memories. The stuff now is all very complicated in one way or another. Many of you do not know what actually happened and how I’m feeling at sometime about some stuff. I may seem all happy most of the times but as you know, there is a malay saying that if a person is sad, and keeps on laughing or acting happy, laughter will eventually lead to tears. Something like that. But in fact, I’m not as sad as you all may think. It’s only a few issues that would affect me.

Anyway, I’ve got a message from my in-charge informing that I actually had work tomorrow. Like WTF. I saw my schedule before I left on Saturday and it said Thursday is my next working day. Then, this Friday , I actually am not working. He sent me an sms saying Friday we’ll discuss the don’t remember what he said, just wanted to discuss something with me. Fuck? I’ve to work on Friday too? Thought my schedule was already planned. It’s alright, I shall have a positive thinking. Working there will be relaxing for me, I also can go to town when I work, and more, I’ve got money to make. Positive thoughts! Wooo!

Updates about yesterday, went out with Candy to Orchard, she shopped, I shopped. Bought a few stuff so did she. Think we shopped too fast and ending up having no idea where to go next. Next thing you know, her friend came along like at 8 or 9 and guess what? He stays a few blocks away from me. Wth. Coincidental. After we were bored in Orchard, we left for Jurong west to have late dinner and He drove me home. But really very coincidental that he too stays in Teban Gardens too. Haha. Not long after being home, bathed and did stuff I needed to do, I received a call from the crazy girl named Candy. Chatted till 6a.m, Omg it’s now that I realized why I’m feeling so sleepy. Therefore, I’m going to bed now because I have work tomorrow. Positive thinking!!! Yeappy yea!

Small fonts.. Hehehe

2010-01-22T22:24:00.001+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... make my fonts so tiny, bet you'll complaint about the font size again. :)

This is a special post for Kendra Ng who has been complaining about how HUGE my words are. Kendra can you read my post? Small enough for you? Wahaha! I bet you’ll complaint again on how small it is now right? I’ll be waiting yea? J

Work, Work & Work

2010-01-22T00:38:00.002+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... Just stare right into your beautiful eyes.

Been busy with work this few days. I’ve just started work at GAP on Wednesday. Today is the second day of work. Hmm, what do I think of the place and the people? Not bad, quite friendly. Quite a number of foreigners though. Overall, I’m happy working there.

While working today, someone surprise me with her presence. Thank you for the surprise. Appreciated. Haha. Alright. Had lunch alone, I prefer to be alone when I have lunch during days that I work. Don’t know why. I feel more comfortable and in my own world. You know, sometimes it’s good to spend time with yourself and nobody else. Yea Friday, they put me on off. Luckily. Friday is my mother’s birthday by the way. So it’s good they gave me an off. Gonna get a present for my Mum tomorrow by myself. Sad life la, no friends at all. Still contemplating on the gift I should buy. Hmm.

Eh fuck it , I’m tired.

Updates & more updates.. 2010's 1st post.

2010-01-17T04:39:00.004+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... want to feel what love is, and I want you to show me

2010, a new year has begun, like way before I wrote this post. In the beginning of 2010, already some things have happened, and I would not let all this affect me. I’m always smiling and leading a happy and care free life. Why bother about such minor stuff right? Right, so 2009 wasn’t great either. There were quite a few problems in 2009 which I don’t think it will happen again in 2010. Last year, should I say I quite enjoyed? Secondary school life was, hmm, manageable. But still managed to overcome 2009. SIGHS

Anyway, this year I guess it would be different for me. It’s like this whole year is gonna be a fun time for me after I get my license. I’ll be roaming around Singapore! Hehehe. Talking about roaming around Singapore, it reminded me of the topic on friends. I just realized who my true friend’S are. Realize the Capital “S”? If only you get what I mean. True friend’S. A true friend is there when you need him/her. I do not like friends who just hang around you only when they need you, want something from you or even wanting to make use of you to get what they want, or just say they would do this and that but has no results about it. Boooooooshit.

To make it simpler to understand, just making use of you. I have realize quite a few already and slowly I shall step back. Trust me. Having too many friends may be good to a certain extent, but on the other hand may also do you no good. Really, I know who you people are. Do not be sensitive if you are reading this. It may be sounding like I’m talking about you, but who knows? It might not be you. Just do not be sensitive alright? Yea, so choose a friend carefully is what I have learnt. Mark my words. Words in red. Wasn’t to make it fanciful.

Back to roaming around Singapore when I get my license, yea I have a few plans after I get my license. Gonna drive on my first day of passing. I made a promise to 2 of them that they will be the first to be driven by me! Hahaha. Good luck if you’re being driven by me. I’ll make you crap in your pants, as well as I would. A promise is a promise. We will go have late night supper almost every day? 3 of us are fat enough actually. Hahaha. Thinking of the promise I have made gets me excited! We’re gonna have a hell lot of fun! I do aim to acquire my license before August. It will be the best gift for me as a birthday present.

In the mean time, I have been home, eating , watching tv and just meeting friend’s. Messed up life right? I know. Looking for a job too. Monday I’m gonna go for an interview. Positive thinking. Argh. Hope they do hire me. It’s a pity if they don’t. M waiting for my driving test appointment. Feb 2^nd. Long wait. Oh yes! Feb I’m gonna be rich! Wooo.. It’s all about the cash coming in to my gigantic pocket. Spend it on clothes, accessories, shoes?, I don’t really know. I’ve got to plan already.

Maybe I’ll do updates since I won’t be doing anything for the next few days or maybe even weeks or months. Haha

Wanna see your face everyday.

2009-12-04T02:47:00.002+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... wanna be with you everyday, but it seems the world keeps getting in the way.

Each time I hear songs which reminds me of the past, it rumbles my feelings and causes a heartache. I look at you each time I just sit by the laptop, your face is just there every time. Even though I don’t wanna see your sweet face, it just appears in front of me. There are things that I just won’t write here. I would just have to keep it in me. I’m always thinking, when will the time come so that fate would do its job. I know this sounds confusing, like I said, some things are just not appropriate to be said here. I think I’ll just wait, time is not a problem? I don’t know.

It seems eveyrthing is going smooth ~ Life's great!

2009-11-24T02:05:00.002+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... tell you how much you are to me, you're incomparable Darling.

How I wish I could shower my never ending love onto you, but it seems like you just don’t seem to wanna accept it. Won’t you even give me a chance?

Yea, everything seems to go smoothly for me ever since I finished my exams. I think I have relaxed enough for the time being. It’s time to get things started and done with. Gonna start work on Wednesday. Gotten my work shirts and pants, intending to get a new pair shoes for work. It’s alright, I’ll take it slow. Really happy with things, just really feeling great now. There’s no pressure in the things I do. Great!

Oh yea, change of plans for my license, not getting a bike license anymore but a car license. Seems more practical for the industry that I maybe stepping in in the future. Plans ought to be made now, or else, you’ve just got to pay the price. Am I not right yea.

Seriously, if JP hadn’t talked to me about the future and stuff after we clubbed the other night at ButterFact, I wouldn’t be aware of what I’m supposed to do and having realistic plans for the future. Life just has so many obstacles. Hmm. Anyway, license now ain’t that important yet, I’ll take my time on that.

So, today went out with JP and his friends to town, they were alright, first time meeting them. Then we went to catch a movie, “Paranormal activity”. Bloody fuck, I forgot I already had watched that movie at my uncle’s place way before the movie even was screening. Fuck. When the movie played at the beginning, I was thinking to myself, ‘eh, this movie, haven’t I seen it before? Seems so familiar.’ Than I finally remembered the rest of the movie parts. Turned straight to JP and told him I watched it before. Haha wasted money on that, I slept through the 45 mins and then watch for awhile and had naps on and off during the movie.

The movie is just a waste of time, it’s very slow and dizzy. Felt like vomiting. Now I’m home, with half my eyes closed, too tired already. Don’t know why. Heading to town again tomorrow. Haha. It’s like town is my second home. Bet I’ll be going very often. Really. Alright I’m gonna have my rest now. Goodnight motherfuckers!

EventsThatHappen?

2009-11-21T03:07:00.001+08:00

If i were to see you, i would...share every single thought with you. Especially those sweet ones.

So had the birthday celebration for my Grandma. The BBQ went alright. It’s the part when you have to start up the fire. Fucking pissed. Got no patience I guess. Lol. Anyway, I did still enjoy myself. Tomorrow, I have a lunch date with my aunt, and its off to shopping! Woow! I don need to travel! Coming to fetch me again, and staying over with my cousin. Movies and games and late night delivery. KFC! Haha. Most of the time it’s KFC. Our favorite, only when we have stay over’s. But I’ll be running swimming and working out at the same time when I’m over at his place. Goodbye tummy and hello muscles! I so love my life and freedom. I so love it. Hmm.

Gonna sleep now, coming at 11 later in the morning. Night!

Christmas Colours!

100th POST!!!! WOOOO!!!

2009-11-20T14:52:00.002+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... feel your face and just enjoy you with me. If that day ever comes by.

It’s my 100^th post! So glad to say that. I’m just wasting time blogging, cus m waiting for my aunt to pick me up to her place for my Grandma’s Birthday Celebration. My mum is driving there with my sis, I’ll be leaving first. Supposedly, I had to meet Gabs(cousin) at his place at 9, I was with friends from like 11pm last night till 6am. He stays like so far from where I stay, moreover I have to leave early to reach by 9, I cant take it. Lol. I intended to rest for awhile on the bed before I bath and leave the house. But it ended up all wrong, I fell asleep. Next thing I know, I was getting calls from him. Haha. Anyway, just waiting for my aunt to come. Just to let YOU know, I’ll be waiting for you ?

Blog not closing & You just make me fall into your hands.

2009-11-20T03:10:00.002+08:00

If i were to see you, i would...Wanna share my thoughts and feelings with you! You're just sweet and lovely! Melts me down.......

False alarm on the closing of the blog, I was just too lazy to post and thinking that a blog is such a stupid thing but somehow it ain’t.

I’ve been really enjoying and relaxing after the O’s. Been on a long holiday, sleeping late at night, going out with friends, having late night supper, clubs and staying over’s. Feels really good, but starting work at a friend’s company soon. Looking forward to it. I currently still have like 3 things to do. Painting the whole house (insisted by Mum), taking bike license with my mum and to start work. The stuff I need to do are all so packed and time constraining.

Alright, great, I don’t need to sleep anymore. I just came back from pratashop and next you know, she says meet at 5 when I have to wake up at 7 to meet Stanley at 8. Omg. I bet I don’t need to sleep anymore. Then later, when I reach my cousins place at around 9, we still have to go grocery shopping for Grandma’s birthday BBQ stuff. Our main goal is not the food actually, it’s the liquor. Haha. So getting food and gonna have to marinate the meat and stuff specially for Grandma. It’s only the both of us doing everything. So when the BBQ has started, our aunt’s and uncle’s will start playing their part. Their part that they play in the BBQ is to come and eat! Haha. Then it would be me and Gabs(Cousin) grilling the food stuff. Woow. I lack of sleep and I have so many stuff to do. Me & Gabs plan to drink till one person falls flat. First thing to come to your mind would be me falling flat first. Tired and still drinking. Woow! Endurance test. Lol. Gonna have to wait till 5. See! I sacrifice so much for my BFF. Haha. I’m such a good guy. Thank you Thank you!

Gonna close the blog soon

2009-11-12T18:31:00.001+08:00

If i were to see you, i would...close the blog soon

Gonna stop blogging.

ButtFac Here I Come!!

2009-11-11T17:00:00.001+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... go to Butterfac and enjoy the hell out of it!

YES! YES! YES! Last day of examinations today! Fuckyou! I’m so happy. Moreover, Buttfac!!! Ladies night!! Woow! Gonna have a great time with JP. I don’t know what to expect later when I go. Been quite a while since I club. Hmm. Hope it goes well! Gottta prepare now, meeting JP in 2 hours time. Fuckyou!

I lost my freakin phone today!

2009-11-08T01:27:00.001+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... find my phone back and not you. :)

Totally turned off by what had happened today, I just lost my phone and I did not even realized. I dropped it at the bus stop and the moment I went up the bus, I wanted to send an sms to JP. Fuck I couldn’t find my phone. At that moment I knew, wow, shit, I lost my phone. So I just forgot about losing my phone. Didn’t even wanna bother much. Met up with JP in town and borrowed his phone to phone my mum to cancel the line.

So in town, walked around with JP. He wanted to shop and wow, nothing was bought. Haha. Brought out a whole load of cash and nothing was bought. But time well spent. Forever chatting away, both of us just cant stop talking. Haha. I need a phone! I lost all my contacts! Son of a bitch!

Nevermind, on Wednesday I’ll forget everything. Club! Gonna go to the club with JP. Looks like its ladies night! Haha. Still contemplating which one we should go. Anyway, I cant be contacted from like now till like Tuesday or Wednesday the latest. Save on phone bill uh, Haha. Fuck you lame.

Sperry Shoe! FIinally mine!

2009-11-03T17:34:00.004+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... Leave you for my Sperry's! I'll just throw YOU away. :) Cause my shoe's are so much more loyal compared to YOU.

Had a last minute decision to meet up JP in town yesterday. We were chatting on MSN and I started to ask about my boat shoes, he gave me like 3 websites about the shoes. The next thing I knew, I was asking him to meet me in town and headed to Left foot. Haha. So we did and went to buy my boat shoes. Had a hard time deciding which brand to get, Vans or Sperry. Ended up, JP said that Sperry had a better quality, so I got Sperry shoes. Quite happy with the shoes.

Anyway, we had loads of fun together in town, smoking like crazy, talking about girls ( The norm thing), clothes, shoes, life, finance, cars, bikes and blah blah. Fucking joking wherever we went.

Wow! I spent a whole fortune on a packet of tissue while we were on our way to TCC for coffee and snacks. My face was a little oily, so I decided to get a packet of tissue. Just nice at the underpass, an old lady was selling like a variety of stuff. Stuff like bread which she put into a plastic bag and I don’t know, her mat was full of stuff. So on her hand, I saw a packet of tissue and a plastic containing 2 buns, I told her I wanted the tissue, it seemed like she ignored me and continued trying o ask me to buy the bread and other stuff. Seriously I was quite piss off, not that I was being rude, but I just said I wanted to tissue with a smile, she passed me the tissue and I asked how much? She said 2 dollars. So I just whipped out 2 bucks and gave her. I just started bursting into laughter. Fucking 2 dollars for a packet of tissue.

Then we started to clean our faces and saying how expensive each piece was. Each piece freakin 20 cents. Ok I feel so ‘expensive’ using 20 cents to clean my face. Haha.

So at TCC had this very nice tasting ice blended coffee JP introduced. I kept emphasizing how good the drink was and he went like Duh~ I introduced it, SO PROUD! Haha, Cb you fuck face. I told him that. Chatting over snacks and drinks, topics were like cameras, photo taking, wives and future. Haha. Wives. Damn funny la, anyway, we’re gonna club soon together and do what we have planned yea? Haha! Gonna be like so damn fun the things we planned to do. Woow! Can’t wait!

Memories of a photo lead to a tear..

2009-11-02T00:19:00.003+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... tell you how much you were to me? I don't know

I was listening to a particular song by Mariah Carey named Angels cry, the lyrics of the song is really true. Like this particular phrase 'Lightning don't strike the same place twice'. Translating it in my situation, its like, after a break up there won't be another chance to be together again. The rest of the lyrics are really like what's reality.

Unfortunately, i was listening to the song and i looked down onto my table, not on purpose but i don't know why i look down onto my table and saw a photo which has been there for like close to 2 years and its still laminated properly. Guess you know how important that pic is huh?

The ambiance was quiet with the song playing plus the picture, staring at it and bringing back the feelings, my heart just went soft and.... The photo is like sweet and cute really brings back memories we had together. It was all so great and i never regretted getting to know you and being with you for a long period of time.

It's still all strong, whenever i think about.... Things turned out the way i never expected.

1.4.3 still, if you know? Doubt you do, even if so, lightning dont strike the same place twice?

Lyrics of the song Angels Cry:

I shouldn't have walked away
I would've stayed if you say
We could've made
Everything ok
But we just

Threw the blame back and forth
We treated love like a sport
The final blow hit so low
I'm still on the ground

I couldn't have prepared myself for this fall
Shattered in pieces curled on the floor
Supernatural love conquers all
'Member we used to touch the sky
And

Lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I
Said goodbye
I felt the angels cry

True love's a gift
But we let it drift
In a storm
Every night
I feel the angels cry

C'mon babe can't our love be revived
Bring it back and we gon' make it right
I'm on the edge just tryin' to survive
As the angels cry

Limitless omnipresent kind of love
Couldn't have guessed it
Would just up and disappear in the whirlwind

Here I am
Walkin' on this narrow rope
Wobbling but won't let go
Waitin' for a glimpse of the sun's glow

I know I can stand just pull me back up
Like there ain't no hurricane it's just us
I'm willing to live and die for our love
Baby we can get back that shine

Cause lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I
Said goodbye
I felt the angels cry
True love's a gift
But we let it drift
In a storm
Every night
I feel the angels cry

Come on baby can our love be revived
Bring it back and we're gon' make it right
I'm on the edge just trying to survive
As the angels cry

Baby I'm missin' you
Don't allow love to lose
We gotta ride it through
I'm reaching for you

Baby I'm missin' you
Don't allow love to lose
We gotta ride it through
I'm reaching for you

Lightning don't strike
The same place twice
When you and I
Said goodbye
Felt the angels cry

True love's a gift
But we let it slip
In a storm
Every night
I feel the angels cry

A heavy heart weighed with worries..

2009-11-01T22:59:00.002+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... feel that something is pulling my heart down, which seems heavy and it's cause by worries for the future.

I just felt that my heart seemed to be very heavy with worries weighing on it. It’s like they don’t seem to be worried about the results of the exams, and here I am feeling all heavy. I’m just figuring out what will I do when I get my results. 3 choices, if I can qualify for polytechnic that will be good, next if I fail or the grades ain’t that good for poly then it’ll be private school doing a diploma and lastly if I wanna enter NS first then so be it. But I doubt that will happen. I won’t wanna enter that early. Got so many things to do before I enter the Army.

Anyway I’ve been like doing revision for the past 2 days at home for Social studies and Science chemistry. The topics are like repeats, studied them before, therefore it’s easier to absorb. Yea, so doing revision and I just felt helpless because the thought of not passing keeps getting into my mind and then I start to imagine the same stuff again. Signs of stress!! I need fucking treatment! Haha.

Been sleeping late this few days too, like at 5 or 6am. Terrible sleeping pattern. I think the lack of sleep is affecting me a lot? It changes my emotions. I feel less upbeat and just worry more and more. For the past few days, I had a hard time trying to sleep and I went to do a research on why I have a hard time sleeping. The reason is because I worry too much and therefore my body is prevented from getting into the deeper stages of sleep and because I worry too much, my brain is active leading to difficulties to fall asleep. I need to relax, get out of Singapore which is soon after exams. For like a week. I need to loosen myself. I think I’ll be fine after the exams? I doubt so because I’ll be even more worried for the results. Oh my gosh la seriously. Fuck.

I better sleep now, try to sleep.

You're the One I want, Don't you know?

2009-10-29T15:50:00.001+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... make you mine.

It’s you that I want, that simple. But it’s just like so hard to get into you. All this gets me into a Daze. But it’s alright, as time goes, things will come my way.

Busy with exams, therefore I had no time to do the updates here. Its only Facebook that I’m free to use. Fuck! Got no mood to post. I need to release myself! Go Club! Go Club! Drink! Hook up! Make myself wasted! Damn good feeling!

Fun filled weekend

2009-10-18T00:52:00.001+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... be enjoying myself with loads of freedom at cousin's place.

It’s a weekend filled with freedom! I’m really enjoying myself like totally. After the exams I’ll be back there to stay. Wahaha. I found a job? Maybe I’ll be working at Kallang leisure park, which is so near here. It’s just a few minutes away if I walk. Not bad uh.

Been drinking consecutively for 2 days, drinks drinks drinks! What a blast. But I actually have a tummy ache for the whole day today. I think it was the Kentucky fried chicken we had from delivery. I made damn chocolaty cakes 3 times today. Try some? It’s brown and soft like chocolate sponge cake. Hey who knows, it a unique recipe. In fact, it’s a new recipe. Made up of a mixture of other food and it may taste twice as good as the typical chocolate cake you’ve ever tasted. Sick, enough.

Anyway, in a few days time, it’s the O levels. So starting from Monday, time to study. Or else it’s too late. Got really a lot of stuff to do after the exams, my plans are all cramped up, like going on a holiday after my exams in Nov and a trip which has not been confirm and it’s after my trip. I still have my license to take and I got to manage work. So it’s really all cramped up. Got to find a time to plan the things and get it all straight so I can concentrate on what I have to do first.

Looking forward to the activities after the exams!

Schedule for the weekends!

2009-10-16T17:46:00.004+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... Kick you in the ass and shove Durians up it! Exciting? Yea I think so! ;D

Alright, I won’t be free for this weekend. I’m going to over to cousin’s apartment for a stay over because his all alone and he just came back from Shanghai and is staying here for good. Too bad, his going for his NS soon. Hahaha! But not for me! Bet it’s going to be fun. It’s only both of us. Freedom freedom!

We’ve plan stuff to do for the weekends and it would drinking, drinking and drinking I think. That was his plan not mine. I’ll be smoking smoking smoking. Gonna make him smoke a stick, just a stick. You know why? Because he claims he has stopped but he feels tempted at times. So I’m gonna tempt him! Woo!

I’ll be going over in about 4 hours from now. Late uh, intended to leave at 7, but then Mum asked if I was free for dinner with her. Normally I would say no, but after she said stuff to me last time like :”Why is it that when I ask to have dinner with you , you either say no or you are reluctant? It’s so hard to have dinner with you.” This was the sentence. So whenever she asks for dinner with me, I’ll be happy to do so. So I did compromise with her, haha!! I asked if she could drive me over to my cousin’s. She said alright! Hahahahaha! Love you Mum! J Not only because you drive me, but every minute ah.

Then another good thing happened in the morning. I wrote a note to Dad asking him to lend me 20 bucks because I do not have enough to last me the weekends. So I woke up today and found 60 bucks beside me. Wahaha! Thanks ah Dad. Parents are the best uh, again not only because of the money. Lol. You know it.

Anyway, maybe, maybe ahhhh,,,,, maybe working at Kallang leisure park after my exams. So ah, I can stay over at my cousin’s apartment. Hahaha! So near to kallang leisure park. I think la, not sure. Should be should be.

This whole week has been going smoothly, but I do not know what happened to my Mum’s arm, she went to the hospital yesterday and was referred to a specialist for an appointment. She said her veins would feel very tight. I felt it, really very hard. Abnormal. Haha. Ok hope everything would be fine. Ok ok I’m going to prepare my stuff now. Let me write a list.

Laptop, Laptop charger, Hp charger, 3 boxers, 3 shirts, 1 shorts (can walk in boxers around), facewash, toothbrush, bathing towel, cigarettes!!!!, perfume, psp, ipod, camera? That’s about it. Did I miss anything? Don’t think so. Oh! Electric shaver! Almost forgot. Haha. Done! Going to get prepared soon. Guys if there’s anything, do contact me. None important forget about it.

I FUCKING LOVE MY BLOG! SO COLOURFUL!!

I wanna slim down!

2009-10-14T13:02:00.001+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... slim down first. :)

Uh Huh… I’m so stressed up about my fat body..! I need to slim down, and I want to slim down. I was watching Television and saw guys with great bodies. Jealous jealous! I just wanna tone up and get the extra fats off my body. For example like my big, big, big, fcking big tummy! Let’s start something practical like drink lesser and watch what I eat each time I’m freaking hungry? No more supper and make good use of this whole 2 weeks to sweat it all off. I feel so terrible looking myself at the mirror. All I can see is a ball standing, with arms, a face with good features (Haha!) and a pair of legs. Wtf wtf! Give me ideas on how I can slim down twice as fast. Please, I beg you. *Whines*

Anyway, it’s study break now, it’s now or never. Push, push, push!! Study! Ok I’m just looking forward to next Friday. School’s Spectrum. Pathetically, it’s held at NUS. Wtf. No proper place to hold such event ah? Poor school. Haha.

I’m bored at home, supposedly I had to go to school. But I was awoken by the drilling at home by some personal installing the cables for the internet. New types of cable. They claim that the special cable would make the internet faster and don’t know what other crap. Could not be bothered. Anyway, I have broadband wireless, why the fuck should I still have such stuff installed? It’s free by the way, because the cable doesn’t exceed the 15m offer. It goes like this, if the cable length is shorter than 15m it’s free. If it exceeds, for every 5m, you have to pay an amount. So I’m lucky! Why complaint? Haha.

I’m lost, I don’t know what to do now. All I can do is to blast the sound system with Mixtapes! Not bad uh. I got Adobe Photoshop CS3! Woow! Can edit photos! Ok that’s what I’m gonna do. For your information, my photos, none have been edited and if I do ever edit them, I’ll state. J

Tiring Day. Really.

2009-10-10T03:43:00.001+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... miss the whole class terribly!

Let’s start with the week. This week, my laptop was being confiscated due to the exams which is just round the corner, and I only get my laptop back on weekends. It feels really bored without my laptop. Therefore, I would hardly be online till the exams are over, updates would not be that frequent too.

So for today, I mean Friday, it was graduating day for the classes taking the ‘O’s. Most of them were like crying terribly. Like what the fuck for? For me, I did not feel a thing, damn waiting for this day to come. At last it came, freaking happy. Told my form teacher that I could not understand why were the few of them were so emotional about. She replied saying that I was heartless and obviously I could not wait to get out of the school. Hahaha. Funny. Somehow it’s true. Anyway took a lot of photos and then went home to take a nap to re charge my energy. Did not have a good night sleep for the past few nights, not knowing why. Later that evening met up with 2 friends and headed on to Novena for a class dinner. I really enjoyed the dinner and would like to thank my Teacher for the treat, it’s her last year teaching too. I’ll really miss the times our class had together.

This year this class has been the best I ever been in. The friends I have really are a great bunch. Thanks guys! Love you all. After dinner, we went out for a smoke and decided we should head to town. So we headed to town with our teacher it was like only 8 of us going to town, the rest either went home or went somewhere else but our teacher chose to hang out with us at town. Sat down had drinks and chatted about gay stuff. Fuck. Obviously I was the target. Lol. The fun thing today was embarrassing our teacher by calling her ‘Mummy, mother’. Damn shiok. Everywhere we went we just called her that, she could not stand it. Lol. But it’s really time well spent with our teacher. Oh ya and I was carrying somebody’s handbag throughout the whole trip, just because she complaint it was too heavy which I carried and it totally wasn’t. Argh. Haha. See I’m such a good friend. Alright I wanna rest rest rest. Night night!

Drink, Drank, Drunk !!

2009-10-04T12:44:00.001+08:00

If i were to see you, i would...want to hug and kiss you!

Updates updates! I have been going out for drinking sessions consecutively for 2 days straight. I think my beer tummy is gonna pop out in no time if I go at this rate every weekend. Lol. But I’m actually quite satisfied with how I spend my weekends. Initially I thought I would burned my weekend like last week but it turned out well.

On Friday was with some friends chatting and just hanging around at the usual place. Then I received a call from Stanley asking me to go for supper. Met up with him and went to the Prata shop. Shortly, he received a call asking him to go for drinks, therefore he dragged me along with him. Drank till around 5 and cab home. Got myself drunk again. Fcking great feeling but had a headache when I got home and I couldn’t sleep.

Eventually I went to bed and I had to wake up at 1 to have lunch with Mum and I headed to town with Eugene to meet bird and his girlfriend. Had fun at town, time spent very well. When we reached town, they were bored so Monster Cue. After playing for about an hour had the craving to just relax and chill and have Crushed ice coffee. The idea was to go to Starbucks near Orchard central. Sat there relax, chill, talk a lot of crap and smoke loads of cigarettes! Happily enjoying the time flew and we spent 3 hours there. Not bad uh. J Then Bird had to meet his family for dinner at Taka. We followed him to Taka to meet his Mum first and he went off for dinner leaving me, Eugene and Tweety.

The 3 of us went shopping at Far East, Shaw House and Wheel lock. We felt really bored and we were waiting for Bird to finish his dinner. When Bird called to meet us, we were all so excited. Haha. Met up with him and went drinking! Went to Harry’s. Fcking good ambience to chill and drink. Drank till around 11.30 and we were all very tired already so we headed to Serangoon North to send Tweety home and went back to Teban. They got plans next week to go drinking again. I think I should go. Haha. Anyway, I got to prepared now, going to Raffles with Mum to shop.

Plans I'm excited about.

2009-10-01T23:07:00.001+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... gorge myself with FOOD you bitch.

Yea, I’m alright now! Really glad that I have recovered. It has been an agonizing 3 days of suffering. But the fact is that till now, I still have a little blocked nose plus a runny nose so I doubt I have fully recovered.

But amazingly, I still, was able to gorge myself with Japanese food for dinner just now! Wahaha. But I had a serious conversation over dinner with Mummy. It was about me not informing her about my absence from school while I was sick. It was somehow part of my fault for not informing her that I absent myself from school and I’m utterly sorry. Mum did not believe I had fallen ill. The reason, is because if I had fallen ill I could have taken the responsibility to inform her but I did not, so therefore she took it for a lie and just an excuse for playing truant. Omg. But I really did fall ill. Partly also, she hardly sees me because she doesn’t stay with me. Even though if I fall ill and nobody would tell her, she would not have a single clue about it. Blame is on no one yea.

Tomorrow I’ll be returning to school. Boredom is going to overcome me. Wish me good luck. It’s all about checking the pre lim marks and make a confirmation. Lastly, it would be keyed in and printed on my report card. I’m freaking looking forward to tomorrow night. I wanna go out! Anyone wanna ask me out? I’ll be fun! As always. J Looking forward to Saturday and next Friday! Next Friday is Prom night! LOOK CAREFULLY, ‘Prom’ not ‘PORN’ night. Thanks. So excited. Wahaha. They better make it a blast. Or else I’m gonna fuck them right up their ass. The songs better be good or I’ll be leaving. Too bad they do not allow partners. Dumb. So I suppose it would a Gay night for me. Which I will be mixing around with my bunch of guy friends. Huh… The opposite sexes are a complete turn off. :X Wicked uh. Haha. It’s the truth. Then on the 23^rd Oct ’09 is a school concert event where the Arts Group come up with a performance. I hope it would be better than last year. I have company! You know who you are. Hehe.

Alright really busy month for October. O level is in between all this activities. So I got to manage them well. Gonna plan a schedule on when I should revise my work and when I should plan if any events are up for me. Please book me early or else I’ll be taken up! Booking starts officially on any days just after 9^th Oct. Quick quick book me out! I’ll be waiting..

Resting now, tomorrow is a tormenting day. HUH HUH! SLAUGHTER ME.. *pleads in pain with a squealing pitch*

God Damn ill

2009-09-30T14:16:00.000+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... lie dead on my bed.

I had to missed school again. My temperature hit 38 Degree Celsius. Bad cough and I feel really weak at the moment. I hope I’ll be good to go on Friday. Because I’m going out! Better be well. Fuck all crap, I’m gonna rest now.

Great feeling! Just Love It!

2009-09-28T15:29:00.001+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... think of You every second and minute till you're gone.

Yea! Guess what? I got a good 11/15 marks for my Chemistry Practical pre lim! Damn happy. Most of the classmates either just pass or failed badly. Hmm, Proud eh proud. Lol.

My study break is gonna be soon! This Friday, would be the last day of school and study break would start. Great great! Gonna ask people out. Wahahaha. Do wait for me to ask you out uh… J

Funnily, I cut my hand in school without knowing. It wasn’t painful. I notice it only after I went back to class after breathing some fresh air in the toilet. Took my towel to dry my hands and I spotted blood. Hopefully it would not leave a scar there otherwise my dream would be ruin as an Air Steward! Yea, I wanna give it a try to be one. Then flying to countries would be so much easy. Cough still has not been any better. Therefore, I got to rest more. Fcuk. Adding on to my pain, I got an ulcer under my tongue. Quite painful.

Alright got to go. Meeting somebody.

I'm dead tired and sleepy. Resting early tonight.

2009-09-27T22:11:00.002+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... turn my head around and walk away.

Alright just came back, and I feel worse. Feeling fatigue and my throat thorny. Bad, Bad. Anyway, my goal for starting this week is to freaking get out of the house on Friday and Saturday and just go relax myself. Seriously, I don’t want my weekends to be burn just like that.

It’s good that school is tomorrow, otherwise I’ll feel very useless. Just can’t imagine people who just laze around without doing anything not even a job to occupy their time and just wandering around neighborhoods. Such a life, I know I just can’t stand it.

Therefore, no worries, I’ll try hard to score well in my examinations which is just round the corner. Scary how time flies. Wahaha! Turning in now, prepared for school! As if.

Every saturday and sunday just gets me agitated!

2009-09-27T17:13:00.004+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... have my heart beating faster in my chest.

Uh huh… It really proves it all. I just can’t stay home for 2 whole days. Does kill me, making me fcukin’ moodless to do just anything. All I just need is to get out of the house and just travel to somewhere far. It’s just too boring.

Anyway, luckily I was able to go out for drinks on Friday night and it got my head spinning terribly, making my head seriously swollen and heavy. It’s good to feel like this once in a while, I do not know why. I paid the price for drinking too much. I’ve caught a cough and my throat has become a little sore. Was cleaning up my tongue this morning, and I vomited a little blood. Lol. What’s that got to mean? Beats me.

Now, I’m gonna force people to at least get out of their house and accompany me out. So many of friends have something on, like girlfriends, and just other events which does not get me up beat, so I just kindly rejected their invitation to join them. Ahh, just coughing too badly. I wanna get well soon!!

Lost motivation for studies

2009-09-22T15:41:00.001+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... want to be with you for as long.

I somehow have lost motivation to study. Hmm. Moreover, I flung today’s F&N pre lim. Totally a waste. I was informed last minute that the next day was it. But all I got to blame is myself uh, for not taking note of the dates. The worst is that, I left my textbook in school and therefore I was left with nothing to revise. Omg. Anyway, tomorrow’s paper is going to be Geography. Good that I have my textbook at home. Revise! Later I’m going to start, after my dinner and after my bath. Yes! That’s what I’m gonna do for myself! Haha.

Help me help me.

2009-09-21T01:19:00.003+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... ask you out on a lovely Date filled with Red Roses

Ahh.. I rotting from boredom. Had no plans today, just only a normal routine which is to visit my Grandparents every Sunday and have dinner over at their place. After that, I’m always left with no plans, therefore making me feel very bored.

It’s always meeting friends and chatting over stuff and after that, it’s home sweet home. That explains today, just finish the gathering and now I’m left with me and my laptop to just rot through the whole night. Come on..When I start working it would not be that bored for me anymore. Wahaha! Time for me to go out and enjoy myself to the fullest. I’m gonna do that. Anybody interested in joining me? I do hope so la ah.

After posting I think I’ll just catch movies online. Hmm. Great idea. Gonna stuff myself with snacks too. Snacky time!

“Boredom kills me terribly. I need company!”

Amazing day, and i mean Amazing! Love it!

2009-09-20T03:58:00.002+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... ask for you to be in my picture!

Yup, today was a great day, in fact it is a day which I may not forget. Embarrassing myself. Wahaha. Only a few people knew what happen. The unlucky thing today that happened was at Orchard Central. My head literally hit onto the automated glass door. Thanks to my parents with such good genes, I have quite a high forehead. Saved me.

The glass panels all looked alike, which made me confuse which glass panel was the entrance. So I spotted the entrance and walked towards it. Happily, the door shut in front of me while I was Sms-ing and *BANG* my head hit the glass door. Yes yes , loud laughter’s were heard Clearly. Who else would be the ones laughing loudly?

An oblivion answer, 3 of my friends. Fun bunch. We actually were looking for a way out, but some escalators were not turned on, so we headed to the elevators. Again me, I took the initiative to enter the elevator and press the button to close the doors. It seemed like the doors were against me and so it did not close. Mistaken that the elevators might have been switched off due to the closing of the mall, we walked out the elevator. Fuck, the elevator door close and it went down. Sucked totally.

Eventually we burst into laughter’s talking how dumb I was. Ya, ya, and haha. I think I need to go out more often, orchard has really changed. Totally. But after a while, it’s boring. Previously, where ever I go out to just chill or shop, it is mostly in town. Blah. Boring. But eversince, it really has change. Gotta update myself!

In about 45 mins time, I have to go down to meet Gladys. Work till so late, tsk tsk tsk, Let’s have breakfast!

I would not forget what happen today yea? Which is not listed in the above. Wahahaha! Faggots!

Fuck all the shit you give me,

2009-09-17T21:47:00.004+08:00

If I were to see you, I would... give you double the shit you have given to me. Trust me?

I have a whole load of stuff to do and prepare for the upcoming pre-lim’s. I actually stayed over night over at Jack’s place yesterday just to rush through the revision on Math and Social studies. Quite a disappointment today for Social studies. I freaking did not have enough time to complete the essay section which was part B. The feeling really did suck and I am not that satisfied with the outcome. Studied for that section, and it all ended up to a waste. Hey, anyway, who cares?

Alright, I am praying hard for time to pass quickly as possible, because right now, I am stuck in a difficult age where decisions that are made now would determine what would become of me in future. Gigolo la better. SO relax.

No more said, time to get my FUCKING fat ass to work. Science chemistry! Stick that up in your ***.

Sarong party girls. Damn funny video.

2009-09-11T06:30:00.004+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... do nothing.

This is a damn funny video where they make fun of the sarong party girl. Damn funny. The way she slangs and the way she pronounces her words. Witty stuff in this video too. "im a little worrying that they would steal my chanel as well as my sarong".. Hahahaha..Watch it!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2mhgiGWK3xQ

This one is about people stealing hotel stuff. Fckin nice and funny.

The other one is the weather man. Damn hilarious. Watch it! Every where also hot humid. Repeat after me, Hot humid.... lol.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XTMGx7kC6Lk

As always, i am hungry!!

2009-09-11T02:13:00.000+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... eat up the whole world!

I'm damn freaking hungry!!! I neeeeeed fooooooood!!!!

Gay porn??

2009-09-08T02:41:00.000+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... watch gay porn?

Chatting in MSN about Mr.Stanley wanting to watch Gay porn, after going to Play club. Little fat fat which is me and gugu gaga is Stanley. Enjoy!

★ Little Fat Fat ★ Join me at PLAY! says:

*sioa ah

*still haven sleep

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*hahax

★ Little Fat Fat ★ Join me at PLAY! says:

*macam tmr no work only

*lol la u

*comfirm watching youtube

*without fail la u

gUgU GuGu GAGA! Yeah..! Are we match?! 一人一半，感情不散。。。 says:

*i watchin pp

★ Little Fat Fat ★ Join me at PLAY! says:

*pps?

gUgU GuGu GAGA! Yeah..! Are we match?! 一人一半，感情不散。。。 says:

*u dun noe one larh

★ Little Fat Fat ★ Join me at PLAY! says:

*tell me la

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*u stupid wad..

★ Little Fat Fat ★ Join me at PLAY! says:

*i wan to watch

*knn cb

*haha

gUgU GuGu GAGA! Yeah..! Are we match?! 一人一半，感情不散。。。 says:

*thanks for scolding me..

*i like it!

★ Little Fat Fat ★ Join me at PLAY! says:

*you love it

*i noe

*haha

*wat is pps?/

gUgU GuGu GAGA! Yeah..! Are we match?! 一人一半，感情不散。。。 says:

*ltr tell u

★ Little Fat Fat ★ Join me at PLAY! says:

*now now!!

gUgU GuGu GAGA! Yeah..! Are we match?! 一人一半，感情不散。。。 says:

*dun wan leh

*ltr i watchin gay porn

*finding

★ Little Fat Fat ★ Join me at PLAY! says:

*fuck u

gUgU GuGu GAGA! Yeah..! Are we match?! 一人一半，感情不散。。。 says:

*hahax

★ Little Fat Fat ★ Join me at PLAY! says:

*serious ah?

gUgU GuGu GAGA! Yeah..! Are we match?! 一人一半，感情不散。。。 says:

*yap

★ Little Fat Fat ★ Join me at PLAY! says:

*dun lie la

gUgU GuGu GAGA! Yeah..! Are we match?! 一人一半，感情不散。。。 says:

*wanna watch?

★ Little Fat Fat ★ Join me at PLAY! says:

*cant be

*i watch before

*thanks

gUgU GuGu GAGA! Yeah..! Are we match?! 一人一半，感情不散。。。 says:

*really

*i send u link

★ Little Fat Fat ★ Join me at PLAY! says:

*eh u fucking gay la u

*haha

*i cant stand it

*saturday cancel

*u turning strictly gay

*lol

gUgU GuGu GAGA! Yeah..! Are we match?! 一人一半，感情不散。。。 says:

*me

★ Little Fat Fat ★ Join me at PLAY! says:

*ya

gUgU GuGu GAGA! Yeah..! Are we match?! 一人一半，感情不散。。。 says:

*hahax

★ Little Fat Fat ★ Join me at PLAY! says:

*den who?

*watchinig gay porn somemore

gUgU GuGu GAGA! Yeah..! Are we match?! 一人一半，感情不散。。。 says:

*impossible

★ Little Fat Fat ★ Join me at PLAY! says:

*wanna kiss me?

*cb u dun say yes

gUgU GuGu GAGA! Yeah..! Are we match?! 一人一半，感情不散。。。 says:

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gUgU GuGu GAGA! Yeah..! Are we match?! 一人一半，感情不散。。。 says:

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★ Little Fat Fat ★ Join me at PLAY! says:

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gUgU GuGu GAGA! Yeah..! Are we match?! 一人一半，感情不散。。。 says:

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gUgU GuGu GAGA! Yeah..! Are we match?! 一人一半，感情不散。。。 says:

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*-.-

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gUgU GuGu GAGA! Yeah..! Are we match?! 一人一半，感情不散。。。 says:

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★ Little Fat Fat ★ Join me at PLAY! says:

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gUgU GuGu GAGA! Yeah..! Are we match?! 一人一半，感情不散。。。 says:

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★ Little Fat Fat ★ Join me at PLAY! says:

*contradicting

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★ Little Fat Fat ★ Join me at PLAY! says:

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★ Little Fat Fat ★ Join me at PLAY! says:

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gUgU GuGu GAGA! Yeah..! Are we match?! 一人一半，感情不散。。。 says:

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gUgU GuGu GAGA! Yeah..! Are we match?! 一人一半，感情不散。。。 says:

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★ Little Fat Fat ★ Join me at PLAY! says:

*i ask y haven u sleep

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★ Little Fat Fat ★ Join me at PLAY! says:

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gUgU GuGu GAGA! Yeah..! Are we match?! 一人一半，感情不散。。。 says:

*thanks for scoldin me again

★ Little Fat Fat ★ Join me at PLAY! says:

*haha

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★ Little Fat Fat ★ Join me at PLAY! says:

*Wei zhao loves watching gay porn and it satisfies his emotions and the need to jerk himself off

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★ Little Fat Fat ★ Join me at PLAY! says:

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gUgU GuGu GAGA! Yeah..! Are we match?! 一人一半，感情不散。。。 says:

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*-.-

★ Little Fat Fat ★ Join me at PLAY! says:

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★ Little Fat Fat ★ Join me at PLAY! says:

*u whip out your little brother and entertain them

gUgU GuGu GAGA! Yeah..! Are we match?! 一人一半，感情不散。。。 says:

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2009-08-23T04:18:00.008+08:00

If i were to see you, i would...Watch the following videos..

Damn funny things we did today.

Here it goes for the programs I had yesterday and today.

Yesterday was my birthday!! 21 August!! 18 now. Ought to be more mature. Lol. Thanks to a bunch of friends I have that accompanied me to celebrate despite the weather. We went to Sentosa at 9pm to celebrate my 18^th birthday. I really enjoyed myself and got myself too drunk and I just slept.

No idea what they were doing when I fell asleep. But I my head was really heavy. We played a game which I eventually normally will lose. Haha. Alright, and they woke me up to ask me to go home. Than I wanted to bath! I do not know why the rest did not want to. I did not know why the moment I went to the toilet at the beach I just started stripping down to just my boxers and t-shirt and walking around. Hahaha. Thinking of it makes me laugh. Oh yes! Best about the celebration was that we got lost in sentosa during midnight at around 2 am. The walking really had me going crazy. My head was spinning yet we had to walk a long distance and not being able to find our way out. At last we found the way out which was an exit sign we did not see. OMG… Haha.

So we walked and walked till a pick-up came and asked us where was the way to exit and I replied just go all the way straight. The driver actually asked us to hope on too since he was on the way. All of us were like freaking happy. Very cute. Haha. Thanks to such kind hearted persons. We took photos with the so called ‘indians’. LOL! Damn fun. Went back to Teban gardens and had Macdonalds with the help of our friend, yu hua aka andy ( liu de hua that andy lau) Haha. After that we headed home!

For today, had birthday dinner with my Dad. Than when on to West coast recreational centre to WATCH people play billiards. Did not play because I was too engrossed in watching other old man playing. Very fun to watch compared to playing it yourself.

Played till around 12.30am, and went back to teban because it was gonna rain soon. On the way while on the bike, it rained, and i got a little drench. Suck. But nevermind, we had lots of fun under the void deck while waiting for the rain to stop and the rain became smaller at around 3 plus and because it was raining too heavily and Mr Stanley got bored so he entertained us with some videos I took of him in his wildest behavior! Damn funny. I m lovin it!

This video is imitation of 'Rain"

The bottol video is Feiyu qing singapore version.

Next video is us trying to get him on the wall doing a handstand, i drop him a few times because he was too heavy and i kept laughing. Damn funny was the part when he successfully did it and you notice his legs slowly spreading because the guy that helped him up actually accidentally grabbed his private. LOL!

Thank you for viewing!!

A colourful post! For the Fun!

2009-08-13T23:32:00.003+08:00

If i were to see you, i would...Have my blog full of colours!

Just felt that I should make my blog colourful! So cute! Like me ah.. Haha.

Anyway, I just finish playing basketball, I gave in my all to try to win.

In the end, there were obviously some wins and losses.

Feeling very fatigue now, and my eyes are very heavy at the moment,

My eye bags are also very obvious now! No no!!

Sleep sleep sleep ………….

Poem time:

“ Staying in the dark,

Feelings that are dull,

Senses that I have make’s me lose it all.

I’m at the mercy of you,

Giving my all was all I could do.”

Timothy

Some people found my blog..

2009-08-13T23:26:00.001+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... Kick you in the ass, kick it as hard!

Wowowo.. Some people found my blog. Like I said, my blog, there’s nothing interesting. Hahaha. Seriously, although I am waiting for that special someone, it ain’t who you all think it is. So this post is specially for those who found my blog and were talking about it today ah.. Lol.

It’s time to sleep with my Darling! Goodnight!

I Miss You La, What else? Hehe.

2009-08-11T22:01:00.002+08:00

If i were to see you, i would...Slap you ah, NB. Haha.

Okay. Actually the truth is I am tired. Just finish a game of intense basketball. Damn tiring. My eyes are like dragging on the floor. It’s too heavy. Haha. Laugh, laugh, some more. J

Anyway, it is a tiring day for me today, because of the long weekend holidays. Like they say, Monday blues. But it’s Tuesday blues today.

Fuck la, I got a lot of things to do. Really a lot. It’s all piling up plus the date lines are just a few weeks away.

No time to waste, let’s go!!!!!

Bye Pussies!

Thoughts & feelings

2009-08-06T21:52:00.004+08:00

If i were to see you, i would...Share my thoughts and feelings with you, because you’re all I need, you’re all I want.

Wooooo! I love pink! Here are my pink notes. Haha. Those who asked for me to post up pink notes to attract more readers yea?

OK. Rounding up this week. Last Saturday went to vivo city with a friend. We rode there to return the SCV Top box and grabbed Coffee bean!

We went searching for cell phone pouches for Samsung omnia 2!

But to our disappointment, pouches for Omnia II wasn’t out yet. So we headed over to IMM to search for more, results were the same, it wasn’t out yet. Later on we got a call from another friend asking us whether we were keen on playing a game of billard and bowling!

So we agreed and headed down to Telok Blangah Safra club. It was quite fun. I had not bowled for a freakin’ long time. Enjoyed myself tremendously.

After the both games, we headed down to Tanjong pagar to have our dinner.

Feeling bored, we headed down to town to have drinks at this bar. Is it called cold bar? I forgot. Something like that. I ordered a beer, called Cow something. I forgot what it was named. 19 bucks! Fcuk. But it taste so much better, smooth though. Suddenly, we were bored, so we headed down to Boat quay to drink. We drank till 4 plus and headed back home. All of us were too tired. Really tired. Oh yea!!! I got a new phone!!! Samsung Preston!!

So happy! That was last Friday la. Haha. Not a bad phone. So cute! Ok this is all.

Now, about school this week. Totally sucks but fun!

I was suspended for 1 whole day! So fun! Suspended with my bunch of friends. Oh ya, I forgot, 5 of us, our names are being black listed ever since the beginning of this year. Shiok! All the teachers know that and the entire office. Woow! Ok I was suspended for my hair, it applies to the rest of my friends too. After that, the next day, I went to cut my hair. Went back to school, and it wasn’t the standard the DM wanted. So I went to cut again and dyed back my hair to black. Suck. This whole week, out of 5 days, I only studied for 1 day. The rest are problems. Haha.

Tomorrow is the celebration for national day. So there won’t be any lessons conducted. Ya! I forgot again, our school is going into Guinness world of records! For what? For folding the most paper cranes! LMAO la. Tomorrow we’re going to spend a whole good 2 hours folding as many cranes as possible. Sounds easy? Try it. We had a test run today. The whole school including teachers had to fold as many paper cranes as possible in half an hour. Damn fun! Once the announcement was made to start, the whole school roar! Power! I LIKE!!

The whole school was in their own respective classrooms la. So the roar was like quite loud. I’m getting prepared for tomorrow crane folding! The crane folding is also a project for charity. Songhe is a rice company. They sponsor the papers and we fold. Each crane we fold is donating 100grams of rice to charity. Whole school folding, so you should be able to imagine how much rice is that. I can bath in rice man.

Tomorrow event had been planned! Going for drinks! Friend’s birthday tomorrow! Lots of people going! Lets fill the whole pub! Saturday going to vivo again. We’ll see how it goes. Alright I got some other stuff to do! BYE!

You're a autistic ass..

2009-07-28T22:31:00.001+08:00

If i were to see you, i would...Cut the fucking shit out of you, rippin’ off every single intestine in you,let you bleed to death and then slowly skin you alive. Excitement and satisfaction i shall get!

I have been having thoughts lately on what my future will become. I do not know why such a feeling tingles around me. Confusion and anxiety occurred ever since the June holidays ended. The only thought I have that affects me is the ‘O’s. It is just round the corner. Furthermore, I’m not prepared for it.

I have been concentrating in lessons, but Mathematics the monstrous subject that haunts me. Today, while I was doing a math worksheet, my mind went blank. I forgot the formulas. Scary. I am really worried for the result that will come out next year after my ‘O’s.

Anyway, prefer to change a topic, and not about studies. Really looking forward to the coming long weekend next week! August 9! 7^th of august is a Friday, than I have Saturday, Sunday and Monday to relax my mind. I think I need a proper break.

This few days, I’ve been feeling tired. I do not know why too. Maybe too much brain juice has been used. Yea, I so believe myself for saying that. Haha. I have not been out window shopping or like just go chill some where else than in TEBAN. Wtf. Never mind, I just have to do sacrifices for myself in order to achieve what I want, that is to pass and get into a course. After that I can play all I want. Just can’t wait for that time to come. A lot of plans that I have! Exciting sia! Motivational aim to study hard.

I’m slowly cutting down my habit of smoking already. Yea! I have not bought a pack of cigarettes for like 2 weeks? And I only smoke I think maximum 5 stick a day or lesser. Good good. Takes time thought to quit. SAVE money!

Just need to catch more sleep although tomorrow is a late day for me. Only Half an hour of extra sleep. Fuck.

Why won't you come back to me?

2009-07-26T01:49:00.002+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... Call out for you to be mine, and mine forever.

Wouldn’t it be great if what I wish for come true? Or what ever you have wished for? I really do, seriously do.

If you have taken notice, it has been a year and 2 months that has past, ever since we last gave the last look at each other. You have been busy with work and with some other more important stuff that means everything to you, and I do understand that sometimes asking you out would be a tedious thing to do because of your tight schedule and which, you have your life to lead, carving your pathway towards your career.

I may have a request that you may not grant, or maybe you would. It is all in a daze. But really, it is all fated like you always said if we were to be back together again which until now I do not think that would ever, ever will be true. I am not angry in any way that what ever had happen when we together. Lol la..

It is like a extremely important something I had with me for the few years, and out of the blues, it is gone. Funny actually, that I suddenly have this feeling to post this kind of strange feelings I have inside. Hmm, Love is that strong I suppose? What oblivion.

Anyway, I am very tired already, but I just want to write a poem yea?

“It’s been a year and so,

Time flies fast and not slow.

The last look I had at you ,

Makes me miss you.

You said it is all fated,

But I said fate is all fake.

Love can be strong but hurtful.

Jot it all down and you would be grateful,

Grateful to the extend of being hurtful,

Hurtful till I was the fool.

Giving my all was all I wanted,

But somehow you left me unwanted.

Words can describe what I want to say,

Which is I still do miss you.

Calling you my darling was music to my ears,

Breaking up was a stab in my heart.”

Headache from tests!!

2009-07-21T23:21:00.000+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... Be reminded of our past together.

After 2 days of exams, I have a major headache for the last paper. Freaks me out! Yesterday SS paper was a smooth one, but today, for science chemistry, I had a major headache and I did not complete the paper because I slept through it. Damn tired and I had not even a single of motivation to do the chemistry paper. Do not know why. But I have not given up yet! Hehe.

Anyway, today, we celebrated racial harmony day in school today. Remember the times when such events in school happens? Its so damn fun. I did not dress up in any ethnic costume because I forgot to remind my friend to bring a set for me. Reason? I forgot to remind him as I was busy doing my geog late night till 1 plus.

But however, we had a class photo! Memories memories!! Hope they quickly post up the pictures taken. I want sleep sleep sleep! Tired like fuck!

Life ain't that perfect. Agree?

2009-07-20T00:03:00.001+08:00

If i were to see you, i would... give you the last kiss.

A moody colour to use. Why? Because I was hurt by what my Mum said to me, which made me feel really very useless. She knew I have a test this Monday, I mean the whole week I have tests going on. So I tried to study, went to a friend’s house to study.

Got a call from her, and all I got was a lecture and demoralizing words. “What’s the use of studying the day before? Study till late night also will forget the next day. Studying the day before, do you think you will pass? If you wanted to study, you would have done it long ago.”

Hearing all this fcked up shit made me confuse, agitated and hurt. What the bloody fcuk ‘encouragement’ is this? Do not even get support from her that I at least try to study for the test tomorrow? Had the thought of giving up ‘O’s after that call. But if I walk the wrong step now, the one suffering will be me. So I told myself that no matter what ever comes, or happens, I will just finish my ‘O’s.

Seriously, ever since my family broke up, and my Mum met another guy, she has change a lot. I really feel the attitude that she has ever since she was with him. The guy also has serious attitude problem. He even wanted to punch me 3 years back. Called a man? Fcuk that! From then on, I dislike him. Now I’m starting to dislike her. Luckily, she stays at another block. So I do not see her frequently. When ever I see her, it is either, she is nice or most of the time sarcastic and with an attitude.

What can say guys? It is her choice to be with him. CB! Because of that guy! My family is incomplete. Spared a fcukin thought about my dad? Not at all! Sometimes when I see my dad, my heart aches. After the divorce, he has also change a lot. I can’t blame him totally. At least, when there is time I will try to spend it with him, which I have done so on Saturday! Feel so happy.

While I was asleep on Saturday morning, he woke me up and told me he’ll wait for me to wake up and than proceed to jurong point to just walk walk. So I agreed. After that, he suggested we go visit my Grandma. I miss her so much. So we headed to Lim Chu Kang to visit her. On the way there, a girl was selling flowers, bought a bouquet of flowers and went to the grave. Expected, the grave was nicely done with marble tombstone. Fcukin big piece. Very nice. But I did not like the photo of my grandma! Fucking ugly! The colour was very badly done, so I told my dad to change the photo and he agreed. So I’ll be looking forward to visiting my grandma soon. Hmm really miss my grandma. It is unexplainable. The power of love.

Alright, I got to rest well so I can sit through the test in the late afternoon. Class as per normal, and test starts at 2 pm. No other better vulgarities to use anymore. It is either fcuk or CB. Teach me more if you know better ones.

In conclusion, i just have to complete my aims for this year. I have to constantly remind myself, by this year, pass ‘o’s, and bike license. That’s all. Got so many activities after my ‘o’s. Friend’s birthday which is at a chalet, going overseas with my mum, overseas with friends, finding a job and more. But most importantly is ‘O’s.

Work hard and I will be able to get the fruit of my labor!

Fallen sick... :(

2009-07-15T22:51:00.002+08:00

If i were to see you, i would.. Give you a warm hug to show how much I loved you.

Hmm… sad to say, I have not been to school for the past 2 days because I have fallen ill. Sore throat, fever and I do not know what else has more to come. Homework is piling up in school, piling up at home. English is the subject that is piling up. Not the other subjects. Irritating.

Do not know whether I am still well enough to go to school tomorrow. We will see how. Got to rest now. Get well soon or else I will lose out in missing all the important lessons and ‘O’ levels are just round the corners! Goodnight!

Goals to achieve in 2009!

2009-07-13T22:11:00.000+08:00

If i was flying i would... Celebrate your birthday with you!!

Yes yes.. I have not updated for a long time. It is time that I realize that I have not updated. Been busy with school and with friends. So I really forgot to update. Hmm.. There is nothing much to say, it is all about school, studies, friends and my goals for this year. I keep reminding myself constantly about the goals I have made for this year. Why? Because it keeps me motivated.

Ever since school started after the June holidays’, we have this quiet session each morning to set a goal for the day, and try to achieve what we have set. Fortunately, it worked for me, my form teacher called my Mum to say that I somehow was motivated in class. It is something nice at last, because during the first half of the year, all my Mum got was complaints. Ok back to the quiet session thing. Somehow, my teacher stopped the quiet session thingy, and I saw a difference in doing and not doing it. If I did not do the quiet session, and not set any goal for the day I would not be concentrating in class. My goal was to concentrate in every lesson and not sleep.

So, I do this quiet session by myself at home, setting my own goal and visualizing what I would be next time. Trust me, it works. I do not know why, but I like it!

Here are the steps to do it.

1. Sit in a chair and place both feet on the floor.

2. Make sure you are comfortable, just relax.

3. Close your eyes and feel yourself sitting on the chair

4. Check in yourself how you are feeling. Eg, tired, happy etc.

5. Set a goal for the day, and visualize what you want to be.

6. Than open your eyes, once you are done.

7. Do this everyday.

Really try it, it does help in a way or another. Oh yes I almost forgot! It is my Ex girl friend Birthday today! Happy birthday little one!! Happy 18^th Birthday. Although you are busy with work, we’ll find one day to catch up ya? It has been like a year since we met. Busy with work, understandable . Catch up soon! When you are free. J

Time to turn in! School’s tomorrow!

I ought to update the blog

2009-07-06T01:18:00.000+08:00

If i was flying i would... Wear high waist panties and be a fashion icon!!! So cool!

I really ought to update the blog! If I wouldn’t who would? Anyway, I have to update no matter what, because I have something to post! Yea! Something funny which happened and it does not happen frequently. I can’t use the word frequently. Once in a blue moon is the better phrase to describe what I want to share. *Evil laughter*

So, it has been like ages since I went to town. Finally, after an agonizing a month or so, I manage to go to town and let it be an eye opener, due to all the changes, like the newly open ion. Looks great but who knows what’s inside. Got to check it out soon.

Here it goes, went to town with Gladys on Friday and she needed to get quite a lot of stuff. But unluckily, I made that impossible. Haha! I actually had to pass something to a friend, that ‘s the main reason why I step into town. Okay met up with my friend, I haven ‘t seen him for around 3 months. So we started catching up and I totally seriously forgot all about the time. Gladys sat there lonesome. Till around, 8.30 she reminded me that the shops are closing and she needed to get her stuff. Lol. It was not on purpose, you know that yea. But it was okay, I owe her one. After that, she went on finding a particular shop I do not remember for what. We ended up going to the wrong Isetan. Now it is even. No one owes nobody nothing. Haha. But I said I would accompany her to town the next day because I know it was my fault for chatting till 8.30. Funny.

Alright, as you all have read her post about me hitting on stuff during the whole trip is true. I don’t know why. God are my nerves even align to the correct places? I trip frequently when I walk and it is always my left foot. Amazingly, I was pulled back by the escalator when my pants touch the handrail. Fuck. Came out from Wisma, and tripped straight away. Why would they make a curb there? Suck. So many eyes were looking. Again tripped while walking to the coffeeshop and the best of the best happen.

On the bus, while travelling home, I fell asleep and someone was suffering badly beside me!! Haha! Someone need the toilet urgently. It was one that was at the climax of just gushing out. Suffering terribly, I added on whistling. Lol. She could not take it. About 2 bus stops before we alight, she already had it planned where to stop. Because we had 2 bus stops we could alight at. Her plan was to alight near a toilet. Had already planned lei! LMAO!!!! Another part of her plan was to alight from the bus and pass me her bag, and than she would run all the way to the toilet. I know it is the Sports thing now, being held in Singapore but not in Teban. Haha!! Okay while I was trying to light a cigarette, she was upfront running to the toilet, but suddenly looked back at me and said something. What I remember clearly and heard was: “ liu chu lai le”. Something like that. I wanted to laugh but couldn’t , stupid cigarette on my lips. After she came out from the toilet, we burst into laughter damn funny. Pampers would be a good choice for you, or maybe a better looking one would be those freaking high waist pants, or should I say shorts? Haha! Worn so high it looks like hot pants you see ah lians wearing. Try wearing those high waist panties and you may be the Icon for fashion. Than retribution took place on me while we entered the coffee shop.

A auntie wanted to come out from the toilet and the whole door slam on me? WTF la auntie. But it really scared me. Shocked to be exact. What Gladys told me was that, she saw the door slowly open already that was when she shouted ‘eh!’ . Her ‘eh’ was to tell me that the door was opening. I would not know that. Haha. But it was all fun, I laughed too.

Had a great time . So we hanged out at the Coffee shop because she was hungry. Pig pig pig… at first my stomach growled even before we sat on the bus back home but town was quite packed at the places we wanted to dine at. The restaurant was close, pasta mania was too humid and we were already lazy to walk elsewhere. Took a smoke before we left for Teban gardens!! The holiest heavenly place to be in. Yea right. I had to head to Boat Quay after her meal. So headed down after sending Gladys home. Cab fare made a hole in my pocket. Guess what? I was so bored at the pub I actually went to buy Newsweek to read in the pub. Than a lady around my age approach me asking me whether I was serious reading the magazine. She asked this: “You serious you can read in here?” I replied “yes I can still see the words.” Her replied was “ Where is the light coming from?” I could not be bothered with her, although she looked pretty. Very pretty features. Something I like about girls. Haha. She had like Japanese & American looks combined into one. Pretty! But girls from pubs?? Complete NO NO. Than sitting there staring blankly into space, another girl came, sat beside me and asked why I looked so bored, obviously I am bored that is why I look bored. Lame conversation. She initiated that I play a game with her. So I played. Not much of fun. Not that I am a boring person, but I had no mood to go to Boat quay that night. Tired.

At last we went home!! Thank GOD. It was around 6 a.m when we reached home. I had to wake up at 12 to meet Gladys at 1 to go town because I promised to go in order to repay what I have done. Talking to my friend. Haha. So we headed to town again and had to come back early for a BBQ. After that we went to chill with friends and in the end, its only both of us being left there. Chit chatted a lot , played cards, which I am no good in. She kept winning. Cheat! Scam! Haha. Stayed till like 5 before going home. Thanks ah slack. Haha. Eh now I am fucking bored la. No one I can chat with in msn!! Fuck it is either they got school tomorrow or work. Never mind I do something else. Catch some drama!

Na beiiiiiii....... School siaaaaa tomorrow...

2009-06-28T23:13:00.000+08:00

If i was flying i would... drag myself to school...

Tomorrow school re opening. na beiiiiii. I do not want to study anymore!!! No choice, have to. na beiiiiii..... Study only.. na beiiiii..

Sleep sleep sleep, wake up early and go to school. na beiiii. Ya ya go sleep already.

Over the school holidays...

2009-06-28T04:44:00.000+08:00

If i was flying i would... spend my time with the Love that i find.

Over the holidays, things i did was just to spend time with my bunch of guy friends. Stayed up late each night till early in the morning. I love this kind of life, for the time being. This time spending activity has been going on since school holidays started. Love it so much. A friend just moved back to teban after moving away for about 5 years. So now we're hanging around together. Laughter and joy brought life into the times we slack. But sad to say, soon a few will start work, and me continue my studies.

I've planned a schedule for the next 3 months ahead after i go back to school. The plan is to move my study table into another room so i would not be disturb at home, and just do my stuff, like revising my topics and what i have learn on that day plus homework all done. Start now or it is too late for me. I've got lots to catch up because over the holidays i have not been doing any revision. Lazy bum. Suck on that. Anyway, i've thought of updating my blog is because i am waiting or my movie! Love this movie a lot. I went to the extend of asking my friend numerous times when the next episode would be uploaded. Anxious i was. Oh yes and i made a discovery. Amazingly, i have not been like out shopping in town or somewhere even near town for like 2 months? WTF right? Guess i want to make a trip down to town this friday to just get myself going.

Friday, went to Boat Quay to have drinks with the bunch of guy friends. Had fun, but not drunk. Good eh. Drank from like 11 till 6 plus. Time flew slowly which was great! It is only great when you are enjoying, but when it is something you are doing and not enjoying, fucking bored you shall be. Agree? Rain yor! New slogan yor! Learn something new yor from a crazy friend. This includes a "Zhao pai dong zuo". Very funny. It makes you laugh till you fucking "peng" upside down. Damn funny.

Alright i just hope i will just give in my all for the 3 months left till 'O' Levels. I will. Cant let my Mum down yea? Oh yea!!! Saturday Teban Garden BBQ!! Having a BBQ!! Enjoy again! Haha. Anyway, i would not bother about anything else when school starts, except for outings with friends or just anything fun. Other nonsense i think that is unnecessary will not be entertain. So fuck stuff that blocks me! Fuck ah fuck. Crazy.

TOO INTO DRAMA!! SHIT!

2009-06-22T02:22:00.000+08:00

If i was flying i would... watch dramas my whole life!

Damn... i'm fucking stuck with a particular show called "Pi Zhi Ying Xiong". A freaking nice show about police and traids. Any way, i just post this up just for the sake of posting this. because i like the show alot. Seriously! Gonna catch 5 more series now. Actually i'm way behind my friends who has actually watch the latest series already and they are waiting for the next to come out. Maybe in just a few days time. So i got to catch up!! Bye bye!!

Wahaha!!

2009-06-20T02:45:00.000+08:00

If i was flying i would... sweat like a pig now.

Slacking with friends now downstairs, luckily some one sponsored me some internet connection, i'm really sweating like a pig.

While chilling, the few of us were hungry, so me and yuhua went on a bike ride to jurong west to get our normal stuff like rojak and satay. Rode damn fast, very fun! 140km/h. Let me explain the feeling. I wore shorts, so my leg hair was like flying. Haha. Playing truth or dare now, damn fun. All the questions they ask....... Going to church tomorrow!!! At last!!!!

It's 4.45 am now..

2009-06-17T04:43:00.000+08:00

If i was flying i would... drink till broad daylight, laugh till I'm satisfied.

It's now 4.45a.m. Just finish drinking liquor. I though it was beer, but we ended up taking in liquor. Guess I'm still wide awake from all the drinking. Finish the whole bottle but still alright. Fuck. I'm just tired now. Tired from badminton. Had sets of matches against the "Greatest of all" badminton player! Lol. But in the end, the one who lost most of the sets was me. Sad to say, i could not even beat her. Alamak la, guess I'm really a sissy. Haha.

After the game, we went to quench our thirst, Oh yes!! i forgot, i actually won the last match, that was how i got my reward! Loser had to treat the winner! Haha. So i got my reward. Yea! Thanks ah. After that went home to get change and took a cool shower before going down to have my dinner with Mr.Stanley. Dinner was over, so we headed to the shop to get liquor and went to block 33 to chill, yu hua came shortly after to join us for an entertaining session. He actually forgot he had to work later on, he was sitting there chatting till 2 plus. I looked at the time and asked him, "It's 2.50". He replied,"Wa!! so late already. I thought it was 1 plus." Lol la.. Then went up to Mr.Stanley's place, smoked and drank and played games. Strip poker??? No la! Siao! I may look like a gay bait, but i ain't one. AIN'T ONE!!! I SAY ONE MORE TIME I AIN'T ONE!! NOT AT ALL!! Gays out there get the fuck away! Haha. Got to turn in now, have to meet Ms Gladys at 11.30 for another showdown of badminton!!!!!!!!!!! No one beats the GAY! Night asshole!

Motivational talk in school today.

2009-06-13T21:51:00.000+08:00

If i was flying i would... go for the motivational talk. Whatever.

Amazingly i went for the motivational talk in school today. The talk was actually very interesting. But i just dread being in school.

Actually, i intended not to go for the camp, but the teacher called my mum again. WTFF! So my mum called me, and she said she would drive me there, and i replied saying i would go alone. At the end, after i iron my PE shirt, i msg my mum asking her to fetch me there. Haha. The moment i stepped into the class, the instructor went like, eh? you timothy? Wa.. Haven even talk to me he knows my name. Haha. You know why? Because the instructors were already warned before hand about the 4 of us. Wtf again. Went through the lessons and finally came to the ending session. They turn off all the lights and started shouting, saying about our parents to cherish them whatever shit. Some even cried. Ohhhhhhh..... hoooooooooow touching...... Don't feel like going back tomorrow. Waste of my time. Sucks!

Going for a preview, Merlior.

2009-06-13T02:10:00.000+08:00

If i was flying i would... go for a preview at Merlior i guess..

Today was the first day of the Motivational camp organised by my damn school. It's a three day camp in school from 8 a.m to 9p.m. They expected me to sit my sweet ass listening to those motivators. However i made the effort to go to school, but ended up going home in less den 45 mins. The Camp had not even started. So i just headed home because i was fcukin bored of waiting. The form said to be in school at 7.30am and i did reach on time. Like a fool i waited.

After reaching home, i relaxed and about 10.30 i received a call from my teacher asking me why i had not shown up for the camp. So i said i did, but i went home even the camp started, amazingly he asked me to go back, Dog. I told him how far i stayed he still insisted on me going back, so i just kept rejecting saying i would go back tomorrow. Dumbly, he agreed. Haha. Got a call from Gladys asking me to go for a talk on a school, courses they promote or whatever. So i met her at Chinatown point and went for the talk. It seems good, but the currency they use to attract you is Australian currency. Smart ah.. So it's like the cost of the course for example is A$14,000, so you won't notice something strange, or maybe not so bothering about the 'A'. We were like discussing the course is damn cheap, and when you go for the preview, they tell you it is in australian currency. Complete dickheads they are. You got to change the currency yourself. Exchange rate now about 1.1. Haha. When we heard that, we went like oh shit.. LOL! But serious it is not bad. Whatever la. Going to sleep. Fuck

Practical examination today!!!

2009-06-10T17:46:00.000+08:00

If i was flying i would... obviously get a good grade for the practical Sucker!

Had Practical examination for Food & Nutrition today, early in the morning. WTFF! I was the first to reach?! Amazing but true. The moment i reach school, i saw my F&N Teacher, so out of desperation to print stuff for the practical I asked for her help to print. Kind enough she did. I LOVE YOU!! Thank you!! Saved me from unnecessary trouble.

Later on, my teacher pass me the printed documents and asked me up to the cooking room to unpack my stuff and start collecting the equipments i would be using later. Did that and later started cooking for the practical.

Skipped to the part for marking.

So i placed my dishes up for display and tasting. Oh ya everyone like my chocolate orange muffin okay? Even the teacher commented that the texture was good and so was the taste. Burger was delicious! OMG. Easy to make, but the burger was not what i had expected, i though i ruined that dish, but it came out perfect. Fuck. Tired now, when i get the pictures of my dish i'll put it up for ya assholes!

Gladys!!!! I only have a idiotic face when that event was a total wasted pile of shit. Haha. Other than that, happy i will be.

Help me stop smoking! Determination!

2009-06-09T17:35:00.000+08:00

If i was flying i would... Stop smoking for good! And I am God DAMN SERIOUS!

I kept having the thoughts of stop smoking. But had no determination to stop. Would really wanna stop smoking. Anyway, i am left with the last stick of cigarette. Gonna try and stop. Friends also help me!!!!!! Haha. But seriously, try to stop me if i want to light a cigarette or even if you see me smoking. Help la fuck! Ok? It would be appreciated. Really. This is no Bullshit. *Prays hard to GOD to help stop smoking*

Taking Cab from Teban to Teban?

2009-06-09T01:49:00.000+08:00

If i was flying i would... take a cab from Teban to Teban!

Received an Sms at about 12 plus from Mr.Dekai, asking me to join them for supper with WenBin. But i was not being inform of the time to meet, so i was not prepared. After a while, they appeared outside my corridor, making the *Zut Zut* sound. So i turn around and saw them, so i rush to put a shirt on and went out. Initially, they said they wanted the prata shop just downstairs my block less than a 3 minute walk. But it was packed, so we headed to Block 54 which is like 10 mins walk away.

Unluckily, they were closed. Fuck. Stupid part was Mr. Wenbin was too lazy to walk back and had the thought of taking a cab back to the prata shop. Me and Dekai was like, wa, walk la, take cab for what? Take a Cab from Teban to Teban you crazy? So the lazy one replied saying he would pay, OMG. Hopped onto the cab and we told the uncle we wanted to go to Teban. He was like, Teban? You all in Teban already, which part?

We laughed it off and directed him. Dumb. Fare was $4.50 which included the midnight charge otherwise it would only cost $2.70. Haha. Had so much fun at the Prata shop trying to communicate in Hokkien.My goodness. And we headed home, Fun and stupid trip!! I'M LOVIN' IT! Goodnight bunch of pussies!

BORING FUCK AT ST.JAMES!!!!!

2009-06-08T23:09:00.000+08:00

If i was flying i would... Turn St James upside down!! FUCK! KILL YOU KILL YOU!!

What the fuck, what the fuck and what the fuck! Kill you ah, i kill you...! Yesterday's event at St.James was a total pile of dung. Predicted long before the event that it would be an event that attracted lots of people and i was freaking right. The queue went all the way to the Valet parking area and even further. PussyHectic! ( FYI, No such word. Created my own.)

So, went to PowerHouse with G. We reached PowerHouse at around 9.20? Guess so. The minute we saw the queue, our shoulders drooped. The mood was totally turn off due to the crowd. Met up with some friends, help them cut the queue. Haha. Alright and we headed to Vivo to actually get drinks, but then to our disappointment they were closing. We ended up going to the toilet, and headed back to the bridge to light a smoke. Aiya, straight to the boring part la, anyway all this also very boring.

The boring part, we were able to get in with the help of some authorities. Haha! Short cut to get in. Alright and when we entered, we were like lost idiots walking around thinking how to get to Power house. Boring. Ok ok.. Forward to the boring part, at the dance floor dance a little and later my right leg ache, and my back ache, think i'm too fat la. Wriggle like a pig on the dance floor. I know when you read this you will be either grinning or laughing now right? I know i know. Haha. Event ended went home. Boring not? Boring right? Ya i know i know. Sucks. haha.

Here's my boring face!

A blogosphere!

2009-06-03T14:30:00.000+08:00

If i was flying i would... create a blogosphere!

Enjoying the whole week of "School's out". That is what I created for myself, although school is still on for structured remedials. Haha. Supposedly I had to attend remedials for the next 3 weeks and only leaving 1 week for holidays. So i skipped 2 days of school to accompany my friends wherever they wanted to do. Sunday night went to pubs, and therefore i had to skip school on monday, tues skipped school because monday night they came to my house to stay over night, tuesday skipped school because they came again to stay over night. The next night, my house was like a Lan shop. 5 laptops were connecting wirelessly to the internet. For today, thurday, went school late just to attend 2 lessons and skip the rest. I was damn restless too tired to go to school. I have already switch to the holiday mode, so skipping remedials would be a norm for me. Haha.

Tomorrows program would not know what is being plan. I'll just go to school and wait for calls to call me out. Gonna rest now, very tired.

Ahhhhh!! Kill Me Please!! Haha.

2009-05-30T23:40:00.000+08:00

If i was flying i would... ask you with honour and sincerity to finish me off with all you have got because i can't stand this anymore!!

Wa... I wanna pull every strand of hair i have off from my head. Fringe too long, itches my forehead, and now i have a pimple on my fore head. What the freaking hell! I know this is my second post in a day. But i have got no other choice but to post stuff on my blog to keep myself occupied or i will go around screaming my head off. Haha. Kill you, kill me and kill everybody!! Stab! Stab! Stab! Crazy. I really hope i will go shopping tomorrow with my Mum. I need to go out, step out of this house or in a second i am going to go explode. Ok i found some old photos. Let me upload them so i would not feel bored.

This is a photo on how i will look like when i am freaking bored. This looks alright. But if you see my expression of being bored.Lol

KILL ME WHOLE HEARTEDLY !! Boredom is exactly flowing on my blood with precision!

Day of boredom at home.

2009-05-30T19:33:00.000+08:00

If i was flying i would... miss church...

What the fuck, today is the day of boredom. Staying home the whole day kills me totally. I have not had this feeling for a long time. A feeling that is unexplainable. It is like i am lost or like have nothing to really do. Listless about the surroundings.

I actually had to go to church today at expo. I prepared everything, dressed up and went down to wait for the bus. I left the house around 4. The bus came around 4.30 which i knew i would be late already. I actually had the feeling of not going already because i was alone. So the only oblivious thing to do was not to go to church. Haha. Went back home and bath. Boring life right? I know. Played games on my gaming station and just walking around the house blindly. Sounds funny but in fact it really tore me down into pieces. Bored like hell. Had the thought of going all the way to Bukit Panjang to hang out with my friends, but seems too far for me to travel. So i skipped the idea. Had people calling me to go out, but i rejected as i wasn't really into the ideas they had on where they wanted to hangout. Anyway, i'll still wait for calls to where i should go. Maybe i should just revise my chinese, get prepared for the 'O' Level mother tongue paper on monday?

I'll just re-capped on the stuff i have been doing the whole week.

This whole week is an interesting week. Played soccer everyday after school and had baths in the toilet after soccer, stripping naked with the bunch of us and bathing. Very fun.

The best highlight of the week was yesterday. After school our normal routine is to proceed to the canteen to meet up. But yesterday, one of our guy's face was really glum and angry. So we asked him what had happen and he said a guy went to talk to his girlfriend, and after that his girlfriend wasnt herself. So raymond jumped over to the guy's table(the guy that said something to our guy's girlfriend) and stared at him. Automatically the rest of us went over and question him what he said to the girl. Mr Yan zhi questioned the guy what he said, and that guy was shaking nervously, and the guy said:" 我要跟你做爱。" Straight away a few punches landed on that guy's face and he bled. He was beaten. Anyway his a malay. He said someone taught him to say that to that girl. Off he went home with a bloody face, a broken spectacle and a uniform with a footprint on his back. Stupid ass. Saying such a thing to a girl. Well deserved punches. Dumb. After everything was over in the canteen we went to play basketball.

Decided to meet at night to go to Arab street for Shee sha. (spelled wrongly?) Really enjoyed the whole session with them. It's all about that, this whole week of activities.

For next week programs is Monday 'O' level paper and the rest of the weekdays going back to school for remedial. Saturday Grandpa's birthday celebration at east coast park, and church on saturday. Sunday night clubbing at St.James. Yup thats about it.Let's see what else is installed for me. Hopefully more and more interesting stuff that i could enjoy. Really stress out by school hours. Remedial lasting from early morning 7.30-5 in the evening. Ain't schools caring for their students? I thought so too. But looking at how they torture us and the teachers is incorrigible. Suck suck suck. But i have no other choice but to go back to school for remedial due to my bad results and i just have to work hard and suffer for the next 4 months to pass my 'O's. Wish myself good luck although i do not believe in luck. It's all a enormous load of bullshit.

To make my blog a bit more lively!

2009-05-28T20:32:00.000+08:00

If i was flying i would... post pictures i did not think i would.

Long day in school again. Due to soccer! Makes me so hyper and gives me so much enjoyment. Add them up and it equals to fatigue. Just gonna throw in some pics for the sake of it.

At last, Im free to blog!

2009-05-27T20:57:00.000+08:00

If i was flying i would... know what is happening in your life although i do not see.

At last, i am given a chance to post stuff on my blog after a long period. It was due to my schedule in school. School releases at around 3, and there after, i'll go for soccer in school till around 6 plus before heading straight home to have my dinner and to get rest. This has been going on for around 2 weeks. I really look very tired this 2 weeks even when i go out to shop around or just spend time relaxing some where. Even though not much energy is wasted when i go out, after a while i'll look very tired. So this 2 weeks has been an ugly week.

For the next 2 weeks is also going to be another messy week with lots of other events like birthday celebration, church services, 'O' Level mother tongue paper, going to clubs and i do not even know which day is the photo shoot. I am not given any notice yet. So i'll have to get sufficient sleep to conquer over the next 2 weeks. Positively saying that, i hope so.

I have been really enjoying myself in school, i do not know why. But it really gets me up making me go to school. Oh yea, i suddenly remember something. Whether it is funny or not, i do not know. It goes like this. Our form teacher has made changes in our sitting plan. So i was previously sitting way back at the back of the classroom with my 2 other buddies. Somehow the smart teacher made a change in my sitting that frightened a girl that was going to sit beside me. So my form teacher's lesson started and she asked me to move to my planned sitting arrangement, obviously i would not like sitting beside a girl i hardly talk to and is frightened of me. So i grumbled and moved. The moment i reach my sit, i pulled my table away from hers. Haha! Than i continued making comments about my sit and all. So the form teacher walked over and i told her i would like to shift and that the girl is very stressed out sitting beside me. True enough the girl said she was. Haha. Than i got to know why she was stressed out, it was because i gave her the bad impression by pulling away my table from hers. Anyway, the class said i was bad to do that. Another girl told me i was really bad. But i did not mean to scare her off, did not know my actions of pulling the table away freak her out. But i laugh it off and this will go on till i am moved to where i want. Lol.

Alright i wanna sleep.

Cut on my forehead!

2009-05-19T20:40:00.000+08:00

If i was flying i would... I would not want that stupid cut on my forehead. sucks.

.......i had a bad day and it damage my face. Ok la not bad day, i still enjoyed and laugh like mad today. Laughing till my throat is a little sore. Had loads of fun today in school. Made fun of my form teacher's hair today. It look like she was from the 80's. It went like this.

Me: Wa Miss Ruby, nice hair ah..

Her: Don't disturb me Tim, i know my hair is funny, i have a bad hair day.

Me:Haha! Your hair is so 80's la Miss Ruby.

Her:Stop it or i am gonna kill you.

Me:Ok la.... don;t disturb your 80's hair la.

Freaking funny. Bad news, bad news, i fail so many subjects. Powerful. Now i am scared of failing. I know it is too late to be scared. So i got to buck up ah. Yes and i know, the enjoyment i have in school is beyond my control. Having so much fun during my last year, but still i will want to pass and go into a poly so my trip to taiwan will be sponsored by my elder sis! She made a deal with me, if only i get into poly, she would pay for my air ticket. Soooo goooooood ah my sis..

Ok so back to school happenings. I had PE lessons, completed my NAFA test. Great! After PE went to bath, its the normal routine, bath using the pipe that the auntie uses to wash the toilet. So the whole group of us stripped and bath. Again fun la! Blasted the pipe and bath. Reason we could so called have our bathing time was because it was a lesson of a teacher we couldn't care less, neither could she too. So we use her lesson to enjoy our bathing time. Completely SHIOK! The water was cold and it cooled us down. Alright, luckily when we went back to class, the teacher was giving out theChemistry papers and soon going through. It was all MCQ's. 20 questions. I got back my paper and ask the teacher straight away.

Me: Eh where is the answers for the MCQ?

Teacher:I haven got the answers, but i will try to solve the questions.

Me:Huh.. You can ah? Ok.

Than it came to the second science lesson. So we proceeded to the science lab to go through answers of our test papers. The same paper of MCQs, and paper 2 of chemistry but with different teacher. We have 2 science teachers for our class. Than a girl came and sat beside me. So i cant be bothered and just ask the teacher whether she had the comfirmed answers as the previous gong kia gave her own because she did not have the proper answers. And guess what, there were 3 wrong answers. Stupid. Lucky i did not copy. Ok than the girl sitting beside me ask me whether i felt that 3 questions were wrong answers given by the teacher. Than i said i dont know. Funny thing, the gong kia walked into the science lab and apologise saying she made 3 mistakes. What the hell. I could not control but to say,

Me:Eh, you dont have model answer you dont anyhow come up with your own answer la

Teacher: *smiles* i know, i dont have the answers. i am sorry.

Cock up sia. Than the girl beside me went,

Girl: *hits my arm* Eh dont be so bad la, keep disturbing Miss Lam.

Me: She cock up what, act smart.

Eventually you should know the outcome, i just burst into laughter hysterically. Funny ah!

Anyway, just enjoyed myself so much today in school.

Than, after school we went to play soccer in the indoor sports hall in our school. So a boy accidently kick the ball onto my face. My specs drop and i laugh. The reason? i have been whacking the ball into goal! haha! Just whack the ball anywhere. Damn fun also. Ok la i got to sleep. Bye

It has been ages..

2009-05-17T14:24:00.000+08:00

If i was flying i would... i would look back and remember the times we spent.

Hmm.. I just saw a photo of me and my previous girlfriend. It is a photo that me and my previous girlfriend have. The picture is taken in Sentosa on the Skyride. Think it is called a skyride. A very beautifully taken photo. I forgot what event was that, that we went there. Anyway, it's already been history. But still memorable.

Anyway, i post this post because i really think i have been missing out on blogging. I did nothing much this morning. Woke up at a staggering 9am. I do not know why that early. But time flew as i was catching a movie "Max Payne". Nice movie. Very action packed thats why i like it. Next movie would be either "The bank job" or "Never back down". We'll see.. Than after i caught my movie, the rest woke up and i had to go down to get lunch for them. So i did exactly i was told. I am quite bloated till now. Actually, had funny feelings in my tummy from yesterday night during the dinner gathering after church at eunos. Made like 1 or 2 friends? Not bad perhaps? Oh yes, yesterday service was like quite boring yet funny. Firstly, it actually takes me like 1 or 2 seconds to understand each word the speaker said, yea she is from korea, so the accent was actually the main problem. All i could understand was her half broken jokes and "Hallelujah" (she says that quite frequently and raises her right hand everytime she says hallelujah) Damn funny. But overall, i still like going for service. Good to be back to church. Can't wait for next week to go back!

This week actually was a exam week, maybe that is why i FORGOT to post. Haha. Alright i think i'll stop.

come on

2009-05-14T23:05:00.000+08:00

If i was flying i would...

eh please la.. i am not so free to wanna make you piss off. i also dunno why u so piss off when i decline ur invitation. Anyway you want ur cap i'll pass it to you. dont worry i wun run away with ur cap. Anyway, it seems you dislike me that much. But i dun see the reason for that. i have so may people around me that likes me, since you dislike den so b it. If u tink i am immature den so be it too. I cant be bothered much either. and if u wanna end things in a bad way, what else is there fr me to say rite? u decide. I prefer you call me t tok things out. Dun post post post. jus call me.

Missed school again

2009-05-06T12:15:00.000+08:00

If i was flying i would... blah blah blah

Yea... i missed school again today. I was totally sick yesterday, for the whole day. 39 degrees. haha. And this morning, fever was still on, than i went back to sleep, when i got up everything was alright. Now i only have a swollen head feeling. I have not smoke for 3 days!! woohoo! maybe can quit already ah.. anyway going to see the doctor soon. Bye!

Down with cough.

2009-05-04T14:48:00.001+08:00

If i was flying i would... cough my way through..

Wa.. Power pack. I've got cough thanks to Gladys for coughing in my face on saturday and sunday i started with my first cough. haha.Irritating... Stupid virus, now i am damn worried, better be safe than sorry. So i'll be going to the doctor later. Waste money. I've got test today, still got cough, fuck. Tomorrow got test again. Mid year exams so important and i am down with the cough. Smoking also uncomfortable. It is english paper today, which was quite hard. I am sure, sure that the 'O's would be harder. But i tried my best. Tomorrow is math. Easy to say, i'll fail. But again try my best to memorise the formulas first for a start. Woohoo la... Fri chalet. Cannot wait. But a bit sian about some minor problem for the chalet. But it's ok. I'll go there and enjoy!!

Labour Day.

2009-05-02T01:40:00.000+08:00

If i was flying i would... be free.

It's Labour day today. Hmm, somehow, today wasn't boring as expected. Let me say this, i've been sleeping for almost, around 12 Hours or more. Yes, thats long. Woke up for lunch and dinner, following that, went to the airport to send my elder sis. She is going to Brisbane and melbourne for a holiday. Guess what? A whole month, a whole month she would enjoy. Thats somewhat her dream. To go to Europe to have a long holiday. It came through. Good for her. I was with my elder sis checking in, while my mum and my younger sis were parking the car. My elder sis told me that, if i would make it to poly, she would pay for my air ticket to somewhere i would want to go. Touched i was. Never expected that she would motivate me like this. It was like a big surprise for me. Somehow, i think i would miss her when she's away. Hehe.. Thanks sis! I will be waiting for my shirts and slipper!! Haha. Air flown for me. Woow!

I've got to go to Jurong point tomorrow to order a special cake which i can design! Anyway, it's for Mother's Day. I hope my mum would like it. I know she does, and she will. Mum is a very appreciative person. Anything that comes, she would just appreciate it, especially when it is anything her kids give her. Even a card, a card that we kids do it, she would keep it for memories.

So for this, i would want a special cake done tomorrow. Church again tomorrow!! Yea!! Sleep early now Good night lovely!

Disgusting video did by my friends.

2009-04-30T21:00:00.000+08:00

If i was flying i would... Poke the Frog and torture it. It is quite disgusting and it destroys your appetite. Trust me. The first time i watched it, it made me have goosebumps. SICK! Here's the product of what they did to it.

Title "FUCK THE FROG"

I totally hope you enjoyed the mini clip of "FUCK THE FROG".

Let me elaborate on how disgusting it is. You saw them poking the frog with a huge, thick stick, waaa... and the splinters on the stick was like all sticking out, and blood like on the stick. Lastly, the stick went deep in the frog and it was TOSSED onto the ground. Now thinking of frog porridge, i would not bother to eat it anymore.

Yea! I'm gonna go out now to chill. Be back later late night, and i will post another video on a classmate. I was being bullied. HAHA!

Watch, listen and do it..

2009-04-29T23:02:00.000+08:00

If i was flying i would... lead the path to success.

"Days have passed,

months have passed.

Soon it would a year,

a year i would never forget,

till i've pass on.

It's been long since we met,

and soon it will be ages.

The nature of time doesn't wait,

neither will it reverse for my sake.

I've been longing to see you,

whether it's in my dreams,

or even face to face.

But i know deep inside,

we will one day.

Till the day we die,

we will.

We will.

My eyes are shutting while giving my all for this para. The urge to give my all, my all for my studies, and persons whom i love and cherish. Cherish before they perish. Once it perishes, it's gone forever, and forever it will be. Without a doubt, it's conspicuously that i need motivation to STUDY!! Alright alright alright, i will promise to study hard enough to make it to a good school next year. Anyway i am so proud to announce that i scored a 9/10 for 2 Geography test. Hahaha! Proves that if i did ever study for tests, it would not be a feat, and i would pass. Although i may feel that lessons are sometimes a bore, and unpalatable, all i need is to put in efforts to do it. I can say that this has made me feel better passing. Given that my teacher has been saying that i was having lousy results for his class, but it was my fatigue that hampered me to do well. So i sleep early for the past few weeks. Hehehe.. But not for today, because i wanna update my blog, express my feelings so i would feel relieve. So for which i have done so, i wanna just rot on my bed now. Night darlings!

Fatigue has reached the climax.

2009-04-28T19:47:00.000+08:00

If i was flying i would... loosen up and chill.

Finally, i have passed my 2.4km run for NAFA test. Haha. So happy, a smoker and yet a runner. The clock in time for my run was 13.40mins. I passed, not perfectly, but at least i passed compared to my previous run last week. I know that this timing is slow for some of you, but because of the smoking habit i have, and my fat fat body. Whahaha. But the least i could do was to be satisfied with my clocked in timing. And wow, my legs ache the hell out of me. Tsk tsk tsk... So after the run, we went to have our bath in the toilet. Standard procedure after PE lessons. :) Felt much more refresh and had laborious lessons running through. But i persevered on with the lessons and it was time for sports with the whole big group of us right at the Indoor Sports Hall in school. Played soccer and basketball. Dead beat man. It was around 5.30 that we stopped all games and went to shower in the toilet again. Quite fun, because there was this friend of mine bathing openly naked, we were in cubicles and he just shower out of the cubicles. Fuckin hairy i should say. Haha!! But we had lots of fun just now. Now my whole body aches especially my hips and shoulder. I think i twisted my hips while playing soccer. Anyway, i've used up all of energy already. A good early rest would shoulder off the pain i have and re energize me for tomorrow's day! Rest well!

Sat & Sun

2009-04-26T19:21:00.000+08:00

If i was flying i would... sleep the whole day..

Wow..it's been a weekend i've had. Starting from Sat onwards, i've been rushing the whole day on sat. That made me felt fatigued. Woke up at 5.30am for school, rush to Orchard for lunch, rush back home to make it to expo for Church service. After service, my energy was really used up. Than slept for the whole day on sunday. I just woke up at 5.30. Lol. And now i am watching Chinese Star Awards. I feel so bored. That's all.

Physically Tired..

2009-04-23T21:19:00.000+08:00

If i was flying i would...

Wow..for the past few days of this week, i have been physically active in sports, which leads to my legs aching, in fact the whole body especially my thighs. It is very straining. Consecutively, for the 4 days, i have been doing 2.4km runs and basketball games. It really tired me out. Anyway i just wanted to update my blog so i did this post. I'm too tired to think anymore. I WNNA SLEEP!!

Going back to church after 4 years.

2009-04-18T23:53:00.000+08:00

If i was flying i would... Praise the Lord.

Praise the Lord. I finally had my task done today. I have been waiting the whole week just for today. At last i have done it. I went to church today at Expo Hall 8 by City Harvest Church. I have finally found a sense of belonging after a long period of time. During the service, i actually had a strong feeling of being close to God. Coming back and worshipping him really made me emotional. But i controlled. But i am really happy i am back to Church to worship Him. Overall, the service was not bad. What i like the most is when we sing praises to the Lord. This is the part where i read and sang the lyrics and really, it is a undesirable feeling which is beyond explanation. My heart started to tremble like i was gonna break down.. So i had to control. Maybe because i was guilty about not going to Church for a long period of time, and when i went back to worship, i had the sensation of being back with Him. But i really enjoyed. The people were freaking friendly. Nice though but i do not like to engage in short lame conversations. :P Indeed i actually spend half of my day in Church. 6 hours. Which was worth it. So i'll be going back from this week onwards to worship and praise the Lord.